a heartbeat away - glamourshit

2009-10-19T15:40:00.000-07:00

i hate blogger.com!

2009-10-19T14:26:00.000-07:00

i had this sudden urge to blog while reading my friend marko's blog (its soo cool! hes blogging about his 6-month long backpacking trip around mexico!)

so, here i am, blogging. i doubt anyone ever reads my blog anymore since i havent posted in over a year? but oh, whatever. just had to put my thoughts out there.

well, im sad to report that i LOST MY CAMERA!!!!!!!! in cancun, when i was there over the summer with vivian, so i don't have many pictures to post, except for this weekend, because my boyfriend got me a new for homecoming as he thought we were going, but we ended up not going.

you know what? now i remember why i HATE blogging! its because this stupid blogger.com is sooooooooooooo UN-user-friendly! all the pictures are loaded on the top OUT OF ORDER, goshdamnit! i upload it a certain way for a reasonnnnn! now i've it down, and put it in fucking order. i dont know how all these world-renowned bloggers have so much time and patience!

[getting ready to go for the homecoming football game!
vista ridge vs. cedar park
vista ridge lost, by the way ):]

[That would be me and gabe, on the way to meet Joe and Karli before the game]

[hes making fun of my squinty asain eyes!
he makes fun of me like a tonnnnnn in pictures ..]

[Karli & i, pretty hammered at the game .. ]

[well, this is what high school football looks like .. if you can get past my stupid face,
cheerleaders on the left, keegan in crutches on the sideline son the right,
astro turf, & crazy kids with their faces & tummies painted (:]

this is taking forEVER! can anyone recommend a more userfriendly, convenient, common sense, blogging website? maybe then i'll blog more.

alright, i give up. i'll just post a whole post with pictures so i dont have to keep dragging them one by one. unless theres a secret shortcut that i don't know about? let me in on that little secret hmm?

till next time,
xoxo,
gossip girl.

haha, i've always wanted to do that.

2009-01-05T14:03:00.001-08:00

i've been out & away,
gone & missing.

but now im backkk!
for now anyways ..

who knows when i'll be gone again ..

anyways, i'll upload pics here & there after school & stuff.
liek this so it doesnt take as much time & i can update moreeee :]

me & braden at the party this weekend.

alright.
im wayyyyyyyyy behind on school work because i was away the whole last week of school.
im gonna get started on some shit, & if i have time,
i'll honest to god TRY to blog.
totally not bullshitting yall this time.

:]

2008-10-26T20:09:00.001-07:00

OMG. yeah.
summer is over AGAINNNNNN.

but it still feels like summer here in texas!
havn't been on here in the LONGEST time.

been busy with work & school & class & friends
& all that high school shit ya know?

anyways,
homecoming pics on my facebook.
(if you're not already my friend)

but i'll upload them onto friendster & possibly on here whenever i get the time.
im working on my sister's care package right now!

halloween next weekkkkkkkkkkk!
whoop whoop!

j'adore halloween!
its like the start of the holidays.

cause right after halloween its my birthday,
& then thanksgiving,
& then winter break,
& then im leaving for CAROLINA!
& then my familys coming for christmas,
& then NEW YEARS EVE partiesssss,
& then new years,
& then spring break,
which means PARISSSS!

j'ai tres excite!

Picture post!

2008-08-23T14:59:00.000-07:00

hey guys!

sorry for not posting & going totally mia for like a week.

SCHOOL'S STARTED!
it started monday, & today was the 4th day of school.
(2nd B day)

anyways, i've made a bunch of friends!
so im happy about that (:

tomorrows A day, & theres this really cute guy in pre-cal.
his names Britian (like the country).
so i gotta look exceptionally cute on A days!

plus hes in my ACC class (US history 1301) that i have on mondays & wednesdays!

i know all this sounds like a jumble to you,
but i'lll explain everything tonight or something. whenver i get the time.

i've got HOMEWORK to do!
ugh.

& cross my heart,
im gonna do ALL MY HOMEWORK! & totally ace my tests & quizzes.
& actually study for them!

im even gonna study for french tonight!
& im not gonna cheat (:

hahahha.
pshhh.
we'll see how long all those promises last ..

anyways, pics from when maine was here!

sunday morning,
on the way to church.

isn't his outfit cuteeeee?
i picked it out for him (:

& he neverrrrrrrrr lets me take pics of him.

downtown Austin,
congress avenue.

thats congress.
or parliament.
or whatever its called.

doesnt it look like a college campus out of a movie or something?

& thats maine!
sean said tht she looks hot in this pic,
& i was like ewww!

shes like his sister!
thats just gross to think about ..

anyways, shes 20, turning 21 in nov.
& she lives in raleigh.

yupppp.

i take pictures soooooooo much better than maine does!

moonlight kayaking!

it was really dark out,
so everyone had to wear all these glow stick things.
so i wore mine on my ears.
lol!
it fell off anyways ..

me & maine shared a kayak,
& it was sooooo much fun!
we were like "left. right. left. right."

but our kayak wouldnt go straight, so we were like
"ok. left 3 times. left. left. left. 2 more times! left. left."

& then ..

"ok. we're going too left! right. right. right."
haha.

& we tried to race all these random people who were kayaking,
but no one would race back,
so we ended up beating everyone.

maine had her cellphone in her life jacket.
& when we were getting out,
her phone fell & bounced off the dock,
& the back (battery cover) of her phone fell into the lake.

so we like ran there & started fishing for it,
& this dude was like:

"sumthin' fell in the water! ...
& it ain't floatin' .. "

i was like aw!
cute southern boy!

six flags!
(for those of you who don't know, its a theme park,
obviously.)

so those were the last pics of the summer!

R.I.P. summer ..

i'll miss you!

2008-08-22T20:24:00.000-07:00

whooooo.
i just got done playing big brain academy & super smash bros brawl on the wii for like 328472347 hours.

im such a video game freak ..
its like unlimited hours of pure entertainment (:

anyways, i saw The House Bunny today!

thats it!
the house bunny. not the bunny mommy or whatever i said it was yesterday.
it was definitely a feel good movie.
you know when you walk out of the theater feeling all good & light & airy & happy?

yeah. that kinda movie.
it kinda reminded me of legally blonde & sydney white.

but it was cute (:
i liked it.

katherine mcphee was in the movie!
she was the pregnant one - & after she gave birth, she was skinny minny.
& super tall! i was jealous.

& they gave her a couple singing parts in the movie too.

did u ever notice that whenever singers act in movies, they always get to sing in the movie?

yeah. she got to sing in this one karaoke scene, & at the end of the movie. like during the credits.
the ending of the movie - where they sing & dance like totally ruined the whole thing though.
it was just downright lameeeeeeeee.

after watching that movie.
it got me sooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited to go to college!

& im definitely going to join a sorority. it looks sooo fun!

gill's sister said that its really expensive to pay to live in the sorority house though.
& the events take up majority of your time.
& hazing sucks.

for her hazing week, they wernt allowed to sleep for the entire week!
i would like sooo totally dieeeeee.

but i think i could see myself in a sorority.
even my sister said that she could see me walking around campus with a group of 'sorostitudes'. (thats what she calls slutty sorority sisters. ahhahaa)

but i can't wait to go to college!
i'll finally get to move out, & start my own life, living by myself & everything.
its gonna be awesome!

but before all that, i have to take the stupid SATs this year, & i better score damn high on that so i can get into UT!
it would be my dreammmmmmmmmm to be accepted!
everyone would be sooo proud of me!

(just like the time when i got the same psle score as my super smart cousin(that everyone compares me to)! everyone called me the black horse because they thought that all i did was have fun, cause trouble, & laze around all day. but little did they know, their precious little daughter/grand daughter/niece was actually a genius! i know being called a black horse is supposed to be a little insulting. but i was sooo happy! i was just basking in all the attention. & my mom told me that my aunt & uncle (super smart cousin's parents) couldnt believe that i got the same score! i loved it!)

& i have to be like superrr active in school.
oooh well, im planning to be on like student council & deca & everything at my new school.
i think it'll be fun.

maybe i'll even run for student body president!

pshh .. yeah right.

anyways, im going to continue watching supersize v superskinny.
im addicted!
im kinda sad though!
bc im already on episode 6, & theres only 8 episodes in all!

maybe they'll have a new season out soon!

xoxo,
Rach

2008-08-22T01:04:00.000-07:00

so i havn't blogged in like .. a month ?
but alls good right?
you guys have forgiven me & we're moving on ..
yeah.

anyways, i've been mucho busy (not really mucho but just kinda busy) over the last month.
moving in, unpacking stuff from boxes, settling in, navigating around.
usual stuff like that.

& i've painted my room.
went shopping for furniture & everything.

oh. & maine (my sister) was here for the last 2 weeks & we've been out all day & watching movies & the olympics all night & stuff.
& we also went to six flags (the fiesta texas one. not the six flags over texas or something like that).
& we went moonlight kayaking!
went to san antonio & san marco! shopped a tonnnn (due to tax-free weekend) & spent a couple of days laying by the pool, & NUMEROUS days at ikea picking out furniture.

& of course we did the usual girly stuff like getting out nails done.
trying out clothes - stuff like that.

oh. & we ate out a tonnnnnnnnnn.
somedays we'll eat out for all 3 meals & then go to denny's dinner to curb our midnight munchies.

we watched a couple of movies too.
old & new.
sisterhood of the traveling pants 2.
& tonssssss of old movies rented from blockbuster & red box.
& lots & lotsssss of hours of olympics. lots.

& we spent just about every other morning at the gym.

so those are totally valid reasons for not blogging- not that im gay or anything. (maybe just a tad for not posting for soo damn long).

anyways.
i have a couple of pictures ..
not that many really.
but i PROMISE i'll blog tomorrow!

im like sick right now & really sleepy.
even though i dont understand how i could possibly be sleepy.

i like totally blacked out & fell asleep on the couch last night at like 8 cause i took some advil PM's for my headache. & then i got up at like 8.30 this morning & went to the gym for like 2 hours. went out for lunch. came home showered & slept till like 11.30.

got up ate & played cooking mama (best game everrr) on the wii for like 2 hours.
yeah, story of my life (a pretty boring one).
but its like 3.18 right now & im dyinggggggg.

ooh well, im definitely skipping the gym tomorrow.
but i'll probably get up at like 12 cause i want to see that new movie coming out!

um. i forgot what it was.
bunny mommy or something?

its about that ex playboy bunny who goes to college?
um. bunny ... something.
im not sure. all i know is that it has something to do with a bunny.
playboy bunny that is.

anyways.
i'll let you guys know how the movie goes, & post pics & blog!!!!!!!!

whooo. big acomplishment for me huh ?
doing ALL that in ONE post?

haha.

xoxo,
Rach

2008-07-31T23:07:00.000-07:00

i just signed up for my classes yesterday!
so starting august, i'll be taking :

AP english III (but i think im dropping the AP)
pre-AP chemistry (isn't tht weird? they have pre-AP here)
pre-cal
french III
advertising and marketing
dance
& then im dropping 2 periods so i can go home early (:

so instead of 8 classes, im only taking 6. but i registered for ACC though! so i'll be taking a 2 hour us history college class on mondays & wednesdays for 1 semster, & i'll be taking a distance learning geography 1301 class. im soo not excited about the distance learning class. im not a motivated person at alllllll. so idk how im gonna be able to sit at a computer, doing assignments & emailing my professor & stuff. can u even see me doing that?
because i definitely cant!

anyways, someone asked whats been going on in the guy department?

nothing exciting or interesting.
just random hookups & stuff like that.
but NO RELATIONSHIPS (:

ohh, did i ever tell you guys what i decided?

i decided that i won't date anyone till im 18!

yesyesyes.
i've decided that relationships are just wayy too difficult, & too much of a hassle.

hookups work fine for me.

& above all that,
IM TOO YOUNG TO DATE!

hahaha.
so yes. thats my decision,
& i won't bend the rule, except for a seth cohen.

or a ryan, but thats totally impossible.

arn't you guys proud of me?

luke told me that im crazy,
& devra said that i'll break it in 2 weeks.

have some faith!

sean even made a bet with me about it.
hah. i'll prove him wrong.

(:

all my love,
Rachael

2008-07-28T11:12:00.000-07:00

webcam-ing with jas & sebas!

sebas got a screen shot of the first picture when i was showing off my watermelon, that i cut into hearts (:
(dad made me cut the watermelon, so i cut 'em into hearts & diamonds & circles)

i was waving it around & everything. haha
it was gorgeous!
but then i ate it ..

& jasmine took the second one when she told me to pose & take a screenshot,
& i gave her that face.

haha.

(notice my nails are painted on one hand, & not on the other.
ahaha. i still havnt got to tthe other hand yet ..)

anyways, im about to head to ikea to get new furniture,
but i'll blog about my train trip when i get back!

& im in like a super dilemma,
of how i should wear my hair on the first day of school.

straight, or wavy.

i'll post pics when i get back so you guys can help me decide (:

2008-07-25T22:58:00.000-07:00

This is for Sean.
Since hes anxious for the pictures.

But this was from my going away party!
The pictures are really sucky because everyone left & got kicked out & its only me & devra in most of it.

But the pictures show the best part of the night!

When Gill got kicked out!
Someone even took a picture of her face after Devra yelled at her.
It was awesome.

So we convinced Alex to let us throw a party at his apartment & invite a bunch of Sophomores (which he wasn't too happy about ..) it wasn't a big thing though, he only let us invite 15 people.

It was still fun though (:

Alex took a busch ice box & tore a hole in it & put it on my head.
& they called me ice queen for the night.
& i wore it alllllllll night!
this was like wayyyyyyyy after everyone left & i still had it on.
hahaha.

Anyways, so the whole Gill thing started when she walked in at like 10,
& we were playing trapped (so most of us were already drunk & you don't want to get drunks pissed).
So she walked in like she owned the place, & didn't buy cups.
(ps: she didnt even know anyone there besides me kat & rachel)

So when Andreas asked her why she didn't buy cups, she said: "Oh, if i bought cups then i wouldnt have to pay for beer."

yeah, no.
a thing of cups are like $3?

so then, she said: "Oh well, i only drink coors light. Its sooo good. All the other beers taste like shit."

again, nooooooo.
coors light tastes like ass!
& its my party! if u don't want to drink my beer then don't drink at all.

omg. im getting pissed just typing this.

so we went out to do a beer run FOR HER to get her stupid coors light.
& i asked her if she wanted anything else, but she said no.

so we went & got her shit,
& came back, & we started a new round of trapped with gill rach & kat.

so we were like everyone knows how to play?
& everyone was like yeah.

so everyone went & got their beer or whatever they were going to drink for the game,
& she went into the fridge & got my smirnoff!

like who fucking drinks smirnoff when you're playing a drinking game?!

smirnoff is for when you feel like you're about to throw up, or after you throw up.
but she drank the fucking smirnoff when we were playing trapped.
(plus she didnt even know how to play. she was like "oh! its just like craps!" yeah, not really. craps is like an old grandpa game.)

so after trapped, we played fuck the dealer.
& she went into the fridge & took 2 of my smirnoffs!

that just pissed me off.

we only got a 6-pack of smirnoff, & me & stacey were gonna split 3 each after everyone left.
but she took 3!

so i told her to put them back, & she was like "no. i want to drink this."
but i just went & grabbed it out of her hands,
so she drank her coors light when we played fuck the dealer.

& she kept complaining that she cant drink beer while playing drinking games ..
like thats the whole fucking point.

she just annoyed the hell out of everyone.

fuck the dealer!
im really good at guessing the cards (:
but obviously A was the dealer, & he got fucked.

....
so then a bunch of us went outside to smoke, & she went outside & told us that we cant smoke while shes there because shes gonna breathe in the secondhand smoke.

but we were outside ..
thts the whole point.

ughhh. its making me sooo mad.
i should've slapped her across the face that night!

anyways, u guys porbably arn't interested in hearing the whole story,
but long story short, she just kept annoying everyone.

ok. so towards the end, alex said that none of our friends could sleepover, but rachel drank so she couldnt drive them home & they were going to spend the night.

but thennnnn, devra went to smoke, & gill yelled at her & said that shes there so she cant smoke.

so devra got pissed & went inside & yelled:
"this isn't your fucking house, so get the fuck out!"

& her face was like this -

& she didnt even say anythingg!
she just like looked away & stared into space.
& then they got up & left (:

haha. yayyy
yup. so thats the end of the story.

its weird though, Gill was always cool when we used to go to parties together.
idk why she was such a bitch that night ..

random ones.
most of them after gill left.

i still had my ice queen hat on!
lol.
i look like shit.

its really bad.
i always turn bright red & my eyes get all bloodshot whenever i drink.

it only happens to me though!
i think it must be an asian thing.

Andreas.

& i look like shit in the rest of them:

when we were about to sleeppppp

alex & stacey switched clothes!
Alex was wearing stacey's shorts & they were like superly short.

yeah, thats it.
wasn't that great of a party looking back at it now.

actually, it wasnt good at all!
i think i deserve another one.

2008-07-25T10:05:00.000-07:00

so, i just vanished for like a month ..

without anyone knowing what i was doing, where i was going.
so i decided, i'll have like a super picture post,
to update u guys a little.

pictures do speak louder than words anyways.
waitttttttt. no. that phrase is actions speak louder than words.
then whats that phrase about the pictures & words?

hmm. nvm, my brain's not working today,
its too damn early.

when i rememeber the phrase, i'll edit this post so it makes more sense.

in no particular order:

sitting in lowes parking lot at like 1 in the morning.

why?
because we have no life.

but then the store manager came out & kicked us out for 'soliciting'
so we went to dj's

alright. this is really random,
but i think its really funny.

so dad has a peach tree & a pear tree in our backyard (well, our backyard in greensboro)
& hes like obsessed over them.

but all his trees are messed up -
the branches wont stay straight & it like leans over.

& the same thing happened to his peach tree!
the branches like touch the ground!

its hilarious.

4th of july:

we drove to raleigh to say bye to my cousins before leaving for texas,
(we're not really cousins. we're like 4th cousins or something. like my mom & sarah's dad are cousins, so .. idk, we're related somehow, but pretty far off on the family tree.)
& we did the usual -
play monopoly & gin (:

im super awesome at both!
but i sucked at monopoly that day though, just wasn't my day ..
Avery had to keep giving me money.

roadddtrip!

it wasn't really a roadtrip, because we didnt go anywhere specific.
we just kinda drove ..
what a waste of gas huh?

this is like my favorite thing to do everrrrr!
just driving around, singing in the car,
taking pictures.

i love it (:

yeah, stacey drive's reallyyyyy safe (:
she doesnt even look at the road!

yeah, my shitty camera sucks!
buy me a new one & you'll have better pictures (:

euro cup!

so this was obviously during ec,
when i was soo totally head over heels & obsessed with ballack,
& i wore my jersey everytime germany played ..

i love him!

& germany, of course.

2008-07-22T23:43:00.000-07:00

Im in Texas right now!

Yesyes, i left Greensboro on the 16th, & it took us about 21 hours to drive down here. We drove for like 9 hours, & stopped at Nashville, Tennessee (is that how you spell it?) for a night, & continued driving till we got to Austin late Friday night.

& since i left, I've been glued to my cell, & like attached by the hip to my laptop, talking to all my friends like i haven't talked to them in years.
I HATE GOODBYES. It really sucks.

Looking back,
Greensboro isn't so shitty afterall ..

Its back to the old saying - "You never know what you have 'til you lose it"?
Its been proven to me time & again.

Just like how i used to hate Singapore, & how i absolutely hated Greensboro when i lived there?
Its sad, really.
Its time i started appreciating things & not whining & complaining about every little minute thing.

Well, im still like super depressed over leaving.
Not depressed enough to guilt my parents into letting me fly back to spend the rest of the summer in Greensboro though.

Afterall, i've only been here for 4 days?

I miss Greensboro already!
(notice i'm starting to call it GREENSboro instead of SHITSboro?)
The last week before i left was absolutely perfecttt!
My going away party, me & stacey's train trip, & the party that ryan threw for meeee!

Ahhh. I miss my friends!

Thats probably the hardest part of moving. If i had no friends, it'll probably be really easy to move. But the fact that i left my friends, & that i have to start all over again, & knowing that i have no friends & no life now, just makes it that much harder.

I cried for like 2 hours in the car, as soon as we passed the - "You are now leaving the City of Greensboro." sign.

Ugh.

Well, i'll get over it eventually.
I always do.

& the good news is ..
I've decided to start blogging again!

Not immediately, bc im in the midst of unpacking, & its pratically box city here with boxes everywhere.

But after i have a couple of them cleared away, i'll post pictures of the last couple of weeks, & fill you guys in about my awesomeeeee party!

& my Seth Cohen!
(you'll get it whenever i blog about it.)

But until then, just hope that i make awesome friends & get my life back as soon as possible! Because i feel like a total loserrrrrr now.

2008-06-25T00:04:00.000-07:00

its like 3.04 am right now, & i was going to wait till 5 or 6 to call melissa & conference with jasmine, eunice, jess & joa to find out whats been going on.
but im too damn tired.

& i don't think i'll last till 6.

but its already 3 now, & i've come so far!
only 3 more hours!
so idk if i shoul djust go to bed, or stick it out till 6.

anyways, i was reading my posts from last summer, when i was in sweden.
& i can't believe i complained about being in europe all summer!

like what the hell was i thinking?
i would kill to spend another 3 months in sweden, living with my dad in his immaculate, ikea-furnished apartment, people watching at cute cafes with kristian, going to the skatepark, tanning at the harbor, & jetting to different parts of europe, eating each country's signature foods.

i can't believed i complained about that!
i must've been crazy.

2008-06-23T11:28:00.000-07:00

i called singapore last night!
arn't you proud of me?

i havn't called in like the longest time.

me & my mighties (all 6 of us!) talked for like 2 hours, trying to yell over each other so that the rest could hear you talking, & complaining that the other person was talking too loud.

im gonna call again in like 2 days.
& talk to all 5 of them (:

can you imagine their phone bill after these 2 calls?
plus i called sean bryan & daniel & talked to them for like an hour & a half each time. & i calle d like 2 or 3 times.

bryan will be sooo screwed if he has to pay for those calls.

anyways, while we we're talking last night,
jess said "do you really read my blog?"
i was like "not really, i just look at pictures."

haha. so i figured people probably won't read what i type either. so i'll post pictures for you guys to look at (:

this is our house in austin, texas.
its slightly bigger than our current house with the 3 car garage.
but NO POOL!
thats alex.
& someone took this fugly picture of me ..

you see the star on my hand?
the security people at greene street had to draw those stupid stars on our hands so that people will know that we're underaged, & we can't get drinks at the bar.

isn't that sad?

at alex's apartment again.
i turn sooo red whenever i drink. & my eye balls turn like bright pink. haha

they always make fun of me saying im a lightweight

strawberry milkshake from wendy's!

driving to the arbor run pool!

haha. i loveeeeeee this car!
we named it summer! we always like drive around in it in our bikinis like singing at the top of our lungs. & everyone just like stares at us ..

you realise how dangerous this is?
driving & taking pictures ..
stacey kept saying "i need to concentrate!"

that would be funny if we wrecked, & people ask "what happened?"
we'll be like "oh, we were taking pictures .. "

haha. i would feel like a dumbass if that happened.

anyways, i really want a yellow mustang convertible!
but this ones silver.

cookout at huddy's house.
after their first couple of beers ..

they started posing.

& then as they drank more ..

they started sitting on each other's laps singing.

after more beer ..

they started dancing.

couple more ..

they started fighting!

stupid boys ..

me & stacey just sat with our feet in the hot tub giggling at them.
haha.

so thats about it for now.
im going back to sleep ..

xoxo,
Rach

2008-06-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

i am sooooooooo bored.
i feel like im exiled in shitsboro with no friends & nothing to do!
i almost wish we still had school, then all my friends would still be here.

everyones at the beach, or went back to their hometown for the summer, or are on vacation!
im the only loser stuck here in nowheresville.

this is the first summer that im stuck here in shitsboro!

i should be in sweden right now.
or singapore.
or isreal.
anywhere but here.

at least i won't be here alllllllllllll damn summer.
i seriously think everyone bails greensboro as soon as schools out.
like literally no ones here - except for ryan & luke.

but its kinda awkward hanging out with them.
& all they do is watch movies. & they always deliberately watch scary movies when im with them because they know im scared.

& i don't even know them!
maybe thats why their always watching movies. cause theres no talking involved.
i mean we tried talking - but theres really nothing in common.

i only know ryan from dancing with him at rami's party.
& luke?
we're text buddies. but whenever we hang out, its kinda awkward.

i've ditched them both nights.
maybe i should go to the pool with them tomorrow ..

back to complaining bout fagsboro -

i can't believe im stuck here in greensboro!
its seriously the shittiest place in the world.
i can't even express my frustration towards this place.
it is seriously NOTHING without the people.

& im like a "be seen & be heard" kinda person, so im absolutely bored out of my mind & totally frustrated cause theres NO ONE here in shitsboro to see or hear me.

i can't wait to move.

& i still can't believe my parents made me stay here in greensboro for like half the summer.
at least im not stuck here all summer long.
i would absolutely die.

sorry, im just in a pissy mood right now.
i went golfing with my dad this morning & my hands are like all blistered.
its kinda gross.

& i hate greensboro.
someone please save me ..

xoxo,
Rach

2008-06-20T12:18:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah. i know i promised to blog about that night,
but i seriously just never got around to doing it.

so since i've got nothing better to do but lay in bed, browsing absolutely useless websites, & switching between books, i'll blog!

ook. so what was it i told you guys i would blog about?

yesyes. the show.
so theres this guy we know from school, gary.
hes a bassist in the band all in a year.

they got booked to play at greene street, which is where the up & coming bands play at.
it was interesting i guess ..
but not really my scene.

all these semi emo/goth girls would like absolutely scream their head off everytime a person in the band walked by.
& they we're fucking mosh dancing - headbanging at all.

we even pretended to join & freak out with them.
& whenever they screamed, i screamed. haha.
but it was seriously intense, so we just left the damn place.

his band was good though, its kind of comtemporary/punkish.
reminds me of sublime.

oook. so after we left, we went to alex's to try to coax him into doing a beer run.
but then he started throwing up, & he wouldnt let us drive his precious truck because he thought we would wreck it.

& he didnt want to ride in stacey's car either cause he said that he was too tall & stacey's car was too little. (which didn't make sense at all, because we could have just put the top down, & he would have as much space as he wanted. he could even stand up in the car for all i care.)

so we had to call shawn, to drive all the way down from kernersville, to drive christine(alex's truck's name) to the gas station so that alex could run in half drunk, to get our beer, because hes the only one with the fake id.

that whole process of obtaining a 12-pack of smirnoff & a 12 pack of busch ice took about 4 hours!

to be young & UNDERAGE!
it sucks.

alex said that he could just get me & stacey our own id's so that we can buy the beer ourselves.

but do you seriously think that i would pass as 21?

thats a clear cut example of america's oh-so-terrible government.

they think that we are responsible enough to drive at the age of 16, fight for our country and vote at the age of 18, smoke at the age of 14, but we can't drink & party for one night in our life before dying in iraq fighting for the country.

if i were president,
the first thing i would do is lower the drinking age.

whats so bad about drinking anyways?
every other country in the world lets their teens drink at the age of 18 ..

anyways, the funniest part of the night, was when we we're really buzzed,
like a group of 12 of us went to tacobell, & walked through the drive thru.

& when the person in the drive thru window asked why we were all walking thru the drive thru window, alex told him that we were being responsible, & not driving while intoxicated.

it was so funny, standing at the ordering station, all of us yelling into the little speaker thing telling the person what we wanted.

& then we had to walk to the paying window, & payed for it,
& walked to the pickup window to get our food.

haha. it made my life.

i have pictures in my other computer,
which i'll upload when i get on the desktop.

& i PROMISE i'll do it within the week.

i've been jumping all over the place in this post.
going from band shows, to being president, to tacobell ..

i'll post a more structured post next time.

unless germany loses & i get too depressed ..
but they wont!

so that means i'll definitely blog soon!

xoxo,
Rach

2008-06-06T12:43:00.000-07:00

mkay. since i havn't blogged in forever,
& there seems to be multitudes of Rachaels out there, i've decided to blog to clear things up.

first off, i havn't been replying tags in like forever, so the person who's been retuning my tags, IS NOT ME.

& i havn't been having problems with my internet connections.
but i still appreciate the person making up that excuse for me (:

secondly, that profile on friendster of carina, is not mine.
its just someone else using my pictures on their profile, so i DO NOT have multiple friendsters.

anways ..
i just got back from texas on tuesday.

& we bought a house there!
its gorgeous! & theres a guest bedroom for guests (:

so all of you guys can come visit me yeah?
plus austin is wayyy more fun & exciting than boring old shitsboro (its really called greensboro, but its shitty).

anyways, i've gotta go get ready.
stacey's picking me up at 5.30 to go to gary's band show, & a party after, & then we're sleeping over at alex's?

so i'll blog again when i get back.

xoxo,
Rach

2008-03-31T19:52:00.000-07:00

i am soo completely exhasted.
i don't even know why. i just got off spring break too!

anyways, the weather these couple of days has been sooo dreary, it makes me want to sleep even more. im seriously napping 6 times a day. its almost impossible for me to be up for 10 hours without napping.

ok. so i slept in biology, which everyone sleeps in.
i mean,its a given. who doesn't sleep in first period.

& then i fell asleep in french again.

& when i got home, i napped, hit the gym for a spinning class with my mom,
& came home & napped.

finished up some work & now im here typing this up before i take yet another nap.
i have to get up to finish up some work before i go to bed for the night.

i guess im growing!

speaking of growing ..
I GAINED 5 POUNDS OVER SPRING BREAK.

ohmygosh. freakthefuckout.
is it even possible to gain soo much fucking weight in sooo little time?
i didnt even eat that much. sure, more than i usually do, but definitely not enough to make me gain 5 pounds in a week.

i went from being 89 pounds to 95 pounds!
ohmygosh. ok. i just realised its 6 pounds!

i must've been in denial when i weighed myself and subtracted a pound from my weight gain.
but. wtf?
how did i gain 5 pounds in a week?

i've been putting in extra miles too!
i ran 2 days last week, & played soccer, cleaned my room, lots of cardio.
& this week, i've been running, and hitting the gym just about everyday.

oasdifhsldkjfsdoifusdlkfnsdf.
sooo frustrating!

i've even been doing extra crunches & pushups & upping my reps,
doing wall squats and shit.

is it possible its muscle weight?

ugh.
im gonna go sleep it off.

xoxo,
Rach

2008-03-30T12:28:00.000-07:00

i havnt blogged in the longest timeeeeee.
i must be the worst blogger in the world, no?

anyways, some of you guys have been requesting new pictures,
& its about time for pictures too.
i definitely havn't posted pictures in the longest time.

so, here are the updates -

that was a couple months back:

haha. i was trying to find a picture that showed my hair best,
so these 2 were the best ones out of my what, 329874234 pics?

& then, i was stupid enough to chop my bangs off.
i look like im 12.

at least i got a good picture of my hair.
i took a picture to send it through a picture text so my sister could see what my hair looked like at that time.

so, its kinda blur.

& all these pics, were last friday morning,
before school.
my hair was a tad wet, cause i was in the midst of getting ready for school.

so there you have it!
an updated picture of me (:

omg. i absolutely CANNOT WAIT to go back to singapore.
if my parents are even gonna allow me to go ..

i don't even care if they make me fly like a stupid budget airline,
with 17 hour layovers (if thats even possible),
& totally not support my shopping expenses in singapore.

i'll do anything!
im that desperate.

i don't care how crappy & uber small the airline seats are.
i won't even care if theres on demand movies.

they can fly me on like freaking whatever airline, my international flight can be malaysia airlines for pete's sake.

omg. just let me goooooooo!

anyways, spring breaks over -
school starts tomorrow.

ugh. im REALLY dreading it.
i have soccer practice tomorrow though,
& im gonna ruun 2 miles before practice.

i've been whipping myself back into shape, & its going surprisingly good (:

i ran 2 miles on thursday, went to the gym for an hour, and then played soccer.
& on friday, i played soccer with my brother & then baseball.

im gonna try to do 6-8 miles a week!

im so excited!
me & my mom are training for a half marathon in like november or something.

but its like 13.5 miles.
a full marathons 27 miles, but we couldnt do that one because you have to be 18. i should do that when i turn 18 huh ?

but its gonna be soo awesome, because its gonna be in austin, and they're gonna have live bands and stuff playing throughout the whole 13.5 miles.

afterall, Austin, Texas is the live music capital of the world!
im superly excited to move there.
plus we're possibly getting a pool in the backyard.

just move me there rightttttt now
.
.
but take me to singapore first.

xoxo,
Rach

soccer season!

2008-03-25T18:52:00.000-07:00

yay. soccer season's here!
baseball season too!

im abosolutely thrilled. i missed my first 2 practices though.
i hope no ones playing my position. i'll be pissed if i have to play defense.

actually, baseball season isn't really here.
mlb only starts late summer/fall, but my brother's starting baseball.

damn it. now i need to get back to the gym to get back in shape.

i might possibly hopefully maybe be going back to singapore for the summer!
my mom said she wants to ship me off for the summer, so i don't mess up the house while its on the market.

YAY! im excited.
they better let me go, since they've gotten me all pumped and excited!

i can't wait to see mel.
& of course jas, joa, jess & eunice!
its been TWO FUCKING YEARS.

thats a longass time.

xoxo,
Rach

2008-03-25T07:05:00.000-07:00

EWWWW! I HATE SCARY OLD CREEPY GUYS!
i think they should die.
absolutely vanish from the surface of this earth.
why can't they just get a fucking life. i don't get why they DON'T have a life.
i mean come on. they're legal to drink, club, whatever you want, they're even legal to get a prostitude for pete's sake.

so what pleasure do they get in talking to young adolescent girls online?

Bob says:
hi
- RACHAEL; says:
hey
Bob says:
mi 29/m/sg
Bob says:
u?
- RACHAEL; says:
wayy too young for u
Bob says:
won't lar
Bob says:
i visit your blog mah
Bob says:
ok?
- RACHAEL; says:
yeah
- RACHAEL; says:
10 years younger in fact
Bob says:
ok
Bob says:
u from jc?
- RACHAEL; says:
so young that its almost illegal that you're even talking to me
- RACHAEL; says:
actually
- RACHAEL; says:
MORE than 10 years younger
- RACHAEL; says:
14 years younger maybe?
- RACHAEL; says:
you could be my dad
Bob says:
hmm...
Bob says:
be ur uncle lar
Bob says:
u want another dad meh?
- RACHAEL; says:
no
- RACHAEL; says:
i dont want to talk to creepy 29 year olds ?
Bob says:
y i'm creepy??
- RACHAEL; says:
cause you're 29 and you're talking to a 15 year old, & you have no life
- RACHAEL; says:
if i were 29, i wouldnt be talking to a 15 year old
- RACHAEL; says:
thats like me talking to a fetus
Bob says:
i like xiao mei mei
Bob says:
hehehe
Bob says:
(:

yeah. that last line:
Bob says:
i like xiao mei mei
Bob says:
hehehe

it just codes for insane pedophile!
he even added that lecherous "hehehehe"
to make it even scarier.

& of course, after he said that, he blocked me.
probably moved on to another innocent little girl.

his neighborhood should have a sex-offender watch on him!

2008-03-15T12:42:00.000-07:00

just another opportunity to laze the day awayyyyyy.

hmm, i was supposed to go over to gill's house this weekend,
but she has to look after the baby!

its one of those annoying mechanical babies that totally scream and shout all day long - literally. so she told me to go over to help her out, but i didn't answer her calls or text her back. haha. thats how much i don't wanna deal with that devil-possesed robot baby.

anyways, me and my mom made granola today!
aha. it sounds so healthy, but its filled with calories.
better than dessert anyways & its pretty goddarn good.

hmm. i feel accomplished, cause i did my homework yesterday.
yes, on a friday night! AND, i changed my bedsheets today (:

now all i have to do is put my clothes away, give the unwanted ones to charity, take my pictures and posters and hot guys off the wall, neaten up my dresser a little, and my room is 100% sell-able!

my mom keeps complaining that our house isn't gonna sell cause my room is so messy and cluttered, and im gonna be the cause of it if no one wants to buy our house.

but i think its totally marketable.

im seriously considering doing an exchange program to singapore or france when i get to college. that would be hellafun.

especially if i went to singapore (:

my sisters going on an exchange program to egypt and ghanna this summer!
her life is soo fucking exciting, im kinda jealous.

she just went backpacking in england for a month, last summer (besides spending the remainder of the summer in sweden).

& i'll most likely be stuck here in shitsboro all summer.
i'll probably be going to isreal, but other than that .. shitsboro.

sometimes i wonder what my life would be like right now,
if i stayed back in singapore.

i bet it would be kickass awesome!

xoxo,
Rach

2008-03-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

i havn't blogged all week.
nothing exciting happened over the week, so i don't really have much to blog about. besides the fact that today was delayed start plus early release plus viking connections, so we had 18-minute classes, and viking connections for 90 minutes, and then we were out at 1.36 - which was superly awesome.

i saw horton hears a who today!
the new dr. suess movie?
it was awesomeeeeeee. i freaking love dr suess. the other dr suess movie that i absolutely LOVE is the lorax. its really good, you seriously have to watch it - afterall, it is dr. suess month.

i used to watch it alll the time when i was little. i can still remember the lines to some parts of the movie.

anyways, i drove again this week.
only that this time, i made a little tiny mistake.
we were driving out of my school parking lot, and it slopes downward. so after i backed out of the lot, i forgot to put the car into drive, and i stepped on the gas when it was still in reverse.

ohmygosh. we went downhill sooo fast, i panicked and screamed my head off.
my mom had to reach over and steer for me and pull the handbreaks.

after that episode, i got all jittery and i couldnt park the car straight, so i had to keep backing out and trying to straighten the car over and over again until i got it right.

but other than that, i think im a pretty good driver (:

i've been seeing that kid that i hooked up with on twirp night alot around school lately.

its kinda awkward. we just pretend that we don't see each other.
i've been trying to avoid him, but we always meet cause he walks by my locker everyday,
so whenever he walks by, i just stare into my mirror, pretending im fixing my hair. &
we're in the same lunch, and his class is like 3 rooms down the hallway from my class, so we walk the same way everyday.

i don't know if i should continue talking or texting him ..
its not kinda awkward. its really awkward actually.

i vow never to have a random hookup with anyone that goes to my school.

more importantly, i'll check what grade hes in and if he has any sisters my age, let alone in my english class. that just ruins the whole thing. i wish his sister would die. not die, but hmm. maybe be like a year younger than me or something?

no, that would still make it awkward.
i wish she were like 8 or 5.

anyways, im just rambling, and you guys have absolutely no idea what im talking about.
but jasmine knows (:

i'll tell you guys the story if you wanna know.
if not, i won't bore you guys. actually, its not that boring. haha.

moving on -

bryan's blog just devastates my little heart.
hes always hung up over some girl.
its kinda cute actually, to know that a guy could display such an immense amount of feelings for a girl, getting all sulky and swooning over her.

its usually the other way around.

i can't remember the last time i was totally head over heels, that i wrote sweet poems on my blog or actually thought about a guy all day.
i just don't get attached really easy.

sometimes i wish i could just channel all my feelings to a specific guy, but then when i have a boyfriend,i don't exactly want him. or rather, i just don't exactly want to be around him, or to have him with me all the time.

you know what i mean?

its the theory of 'wanting what you can't get',
and the theory of 'not knowing what you have until you lose it' all tied in together.

me and jake for example -
i dated him for 9 months, and i thought it was love.
but after we broke up, i wasn't really affected by it.
so that 9 months feels like a complete waste of time.

i can't see myself really hung up over a guy.
maybe in the future .. but right now, i just see it as a little teenage fling, and i can always get a new boyfriend. its not like we're gonna get married anyways.

but i don't know.
sometimes i kinda wish that i had someone to worry,
and to go out of their way to care for me -

make sure i don't ride in certain people's cars cause they're bad drivers.
watch me at parties to make sure i don't drink too much.
call to check in on me and find out what im doing.
or to yell at me when i don't do the most mature of things.

but then again, it was kind of annoying when jake actually did all those things.
i thought he was mom-ish.

i don't know. maybe i just have a screwed up heart to not be able to stay devoted to that one guy. or i just get too bored too easily.

i don't know how long relationships work though.
they don't make sense to me. i would rather have fun and be able to flirt with guys whenever i want to.

maybe what i need is a boyfriend thats really lax and lets me flirt with whoever i want.
then i'll get the best of both worlds (:

but i guess being with someone is like cutting your heart open and displaying it in a glass case for the world to see.

it can get infected that much easier.

& in order to not get your heart broken by someone else, you've just gotta be a little selfish sometimes, and fend for yourself instead of the other person.

because if you give entirely, you lose that special someone along with everything you had.
and that makes it that much harder.

i guess im selfish, and i fend too much for myself.
thats why i suck at relationships.

xoxo,
Rach

2008-03-08T20:40:00.001-08:00

helloooooo my sweet love.
yes, i know i said i'd blog more .. but i've been kinda busy with drivers ed and all that shit. its been pretty overwheming.

I'VE ACTUALLY BEEN GOING FOR DRIVER'S ED!
i signed up like 4 times, and i keep forgetting to go. its every single day after school from 3.45 to 6.30. yes, we sit in the cafeteria for 3 hours leaning 'defensive driving'.

& the sad thing is, most of the people in driver's ed are FRESHMEN!
omfg. stupid froshes. they're soooo fucking annoying. i swear, they think they own the world. all the boys everrrrrr talk about is fucking people.

oh yeah! i totally believe that.

NOT!

they think they're soooo cool talking about sex 24/7, or at least everyday for the 3 hours that we're in driver's ed. but you know what? everyone can see through their tiny little class of '11 brains, knowing they've probably never seen past a girl in a bathing suit, let alone getting head.

they just need to shut up.

at least there are older people in driver's ed that i can actually have a decent conversation with. THANK GOD.

anyways, i've been going to that every single day, not even missing a minute!
actually i did skip the class on friday, but it was well worth it.
god, i hope they don't kick me out.

but anyways, on friday, me, ashton, mike varsey, and seth went to see the

seether, breaking benjamin & three days grace concert!

oh yes, i was about 2 feet away from him, and i was that close to touching aaron fink!
ohmygod. freakout right?

ashton even caught the guitar pick that three days grace threw into the crowd.
the vibe of the whole place was greattttttttt.
it was a full-on rock concert. headbanging and all.

camera's wern't allowed, but i got a ton of pictures and a couple videos on my phone.
i'll upload 'em asap.
or as soon as i get my ass off the couch to actually walk upstairs to plug them into the computer.

i've been totally slacking these couple of days. i havn't done any homework in foreverrrr. i can't even remember the last time i actually turned in my homework.

i've made a pact with myself to start reading for AP world history, countless of times.

but have i actually read?

nooo.
i have like 2 chapters due tomorrow, along with stupid ICE id's.
do you guys do that in singapore?
In depth
Cause
& Effect?

i don't think so, because its totally pointless, and really hard to cheat on.
you actually have to read the text to write that stuff down.

you know what?
maybe i'll stay up tonight to read and actually do my id's.
i can sleep in class tomorrow anyways, and i'll have a total sense of accomplishment (:
maybe i'll even do my vocab notecards for english!

i actually kind of feel like doing my work now.

anyways, with all that excitement aside,

i drove today!

yes, a working automoblie, with gas pedals and breaks with an actual steering wheel, windows, buttons that move the windows up and down, a working ENGINE, the works.

can you believe it?

I ACTUALLY PARKED THE CAR!
it was totally straight and within the lines of the lot!

i even straight line backed!
yeah, i know, this might not be that big of news for some of you guys, but this is the first time i actually drove a car.

i mean, i bet you were over the freaking moon when you first drove.

just a couple of weeks more till i get my driving permit! i can't fucking wait. i just need to make sure i pass the rest of my tests in drivers ed, and pass the final one at the DMV.

by the way, i already passed my first test.
got a B! a high B, in fact, with a score of 88!

oook. i want my license nowwww.
i want a car even more.
actually, i want a truck.

a big, black, chevy silverado, with monster wheels, and the whole thing raised like 5 feet.
that would be awesomeeee.

maybe i'll ask santa for my silverado for christmas (:

yes, i just blogged

2008-02-25T20:28:00.000-08:00

helloooooooooo.
& yes, im actually blogging.

i just cleared my stupid laptop of all that trash and unused programs, and its actually working FAST!

yay! im such a computer whiz ..
not.

because i basically deleted everything on this laptop, and it wasnt able to read anything becuase i deleter java and adobe and all that other stuff that i thought was totally unneccesary for my computer, but i guess not.

b/c i had to go back and google everything and download it again.
how i wish my dad were here when i have technological boo boos like this ..

im contemplating deleting java again,
because its like 150 mb (or whatever its called) big.
thats huge!

at least i think so.
i need some computer genuises here.

so i guess i'll be blogging a wholeeeeee lot more sincce i can blog straight from my room instead of walking all the way down to the bonus room to get on the computer.

its not a very far distance, but still.

i'll have to use it to upload pictures though, becauase i want NOTHING on this laptop.

alright.
i'll do my updates tomorrow, because basically EVERYTHING has changed in my life -
no exaggeration there. literally, EVERYTHING.

ahhhh. im sooo exhausted.
i've only been getting an average of like 4-5 hours of sleep the past couple of nights?

instead of my usual 14 hours.
if you knew me, you would know that i need alottttt
or i get cranky and UGLY.
& basically, im just not very fun -

thats why they call it beauty sleep huh?

later.

PS: i still love singapore! and i know i really really suck at keeping at touch, but i'll always love you guys!

xoxo,
Rach

overdrive

2007-12-18T18:57:00.000-08:00

does hard work really pay off?

god, it better in my case.
i've been working soooo hard.
pulling up my grades and all.

i've thrown myself into overdrive.

so far, my grades have been going up,
but i still havn't gotten my cell back.

I've even started running.
did 1 1/2 miles today.

plan to get up to 5 miles by new years.

but who cares about all that boring stuff?
no one even bothers to notice the work i've been putting in trying to get my life together by new years.

my friends are still being gay.
but its really not my fault.
blame it on my stupid boyfriend ..

hell,
maybe i shouldn't even try getting everything in place.

im gonna be packing my stuff into stupid brown boxes again,
and moving my ass over to austin, texas.

Texans don't even like carolina girls.

sometimes i just wish my parents could understand what it feels like to move.

just packing up and leaving everything that you've been used to,
every person thats been in your life for the last couple of years.

having to start from ground zero again.

its hard.
and its never gonna get any easier.

no one ever thinks about why i keep rebelling.

maybe its because i hate it?
maybe its because i don't wanna leave everything behind for the 5th time in my life?

maybe its because i've barely gotten used to carolina,
and you're about to yank me away from the closest things i have to friends.

i hate my life right now.
i really do.

i wouldnt care as much about the material stuff if i actually had people that i could care about.

the only reason why im so materialistic is because wherever i go,
i'll always have my stuff.

im not spoiled.

they just owe me.

afterall,
my hearts still in singapore.

thats what they owe me.

friends,
family,

people who love me .

if only they could understand.

xoxo,
rach

2007-12-09T11:57:00.001-08:00

Christmas is in like 12 days, and my fucking blog has
HELLO SUMMER!
plastered across the top in bright pink letters.

yeahh.
That kind of doesn't work in the middle of december ..

it HAS been in the mid-seventies this past week though,

i grabbed at the opportunity to whip out those ten pairs of shorts
that i sooo intelligently bought at the end of summer ..

anyways, my life has been a mess.

a major mess.

like when you drop a box full of beads on the floor and you're like
"oh shit! i have to pick all that up? theres no way im gonna be able to"
kind of mess.

like i don't know how im gonna fix this.

i basically abandoned all my friends,
and now they've abandoned me back.

and im grounded for the next 9 weeks,
and my phone was confiscated by my dumbass bio teacher,
and it's still sitting in the fuckass front office ..

and my stupid boyfriend doesnt understand shit and keeps giving me problems.

I HATE BOYS.
no shit, no lie.

all they do is create trouble in every woman's life.

maybe i should just turn lesbian ..

anyways, theres pictures down there ..

pretty self-explanatory, so no captions needed.

they're basically dad putting up the Christmas tree in the China room
(we call it china cause of the chinese themed furniture and deco)

and dinner at Outwest Steak house,
Stacey's birthday eve dinner,
and me and my brother's gingerbread house (:

ohh - the spirit of christmas.
im never gonna get what i asked for anyway.

i wrote a letter to santa and put it on my fridge,
asking for a puppy.

yeah right.
im never gonna get one ..

i really need some coffee and a heart-warming christmas movie.

i'll start blogging more as soon as i get my life in order.
until then,
happy hannukah (:

xoxo,
Rach

2007-12-04T07:44:00.000-08:00

ooohhh. my gosh...

im sooo bored.

we're in the media center during earth science and im bored out of my mind ..

i'd rather be in classsleeping or talking or something -

after all, i am known for sleeping.

and i DO need to catch up on some beauty sleep.

i slept for merely 9 hours last night?

the day before i slept from 3pm to 8am the next morning.

ook. im gonna continue doing theidiot test ...

oh the boringness of school ...

& our computers suck

xoxo,

rach

2007-11-21T20:35:00.000-08:00

its thanksgiving tomorrow!
aka turkey day..

(but we're not having turkey cause we like ham better.
so technically, its ham day in our house)

anyhow,
im gonna be blogging about the mulitudes of food that im gonna be
gorging myself with.

god. im sooo excited.
i LOVE thanksgiving ..

all the desserts and pies,
and my favorite good ol' southern sweet potato casserole and corn bread,
as well as nice creamy and sweet eggnog to wash it all down (:

anyways, to make up for not blogging today,
i dug out one of my older posts
(which i thought was pretty hilarious)
and im just gonna copy and paste it on here.

its pretty god dang long,
because i had a TON of time when i blogged it over the summer in sweden,
when i was still at my dad's house.

but anyways.
its old.

(just got back from hanging out with my first friend i ever made in sweden (: his name is christan and we walked his dog at the park and then went to walk at the beach. jakes really pissed that im hanging out with him. lol. but. ohh, well. I HAVE A FRIEND NOW (: and it makes me happy (: ohh. FYI. this is about to be a superly long post. soo, skip over and come back tomorrow if you're not in the mood. )

well, life sucks anyway. DON'T DO DRUGS,
DON'T HAVE PREMATIRAL SEX, DON'T SMOKE,
EAT VEGGIES, EXERCISE REGULARLY,
WORK YOUR ASS OFF 3/4 OF YOUR LIFE,
LIVE HEALTHILY and then die.
got it from jessica's blog

that is soo true. DAMN IT.
one mistake and you totally screw yourself over.

alright. lets look at things one at a time.
if you DO DRUGS,
scenario one -
you'll get addicted, (most likely) and you'll spend a tonnnn of money on drugs,
and you'll have to borrow money from people and/or the bank,
and your credit score will totally go up, making it harder for you to get more drugs,
and then you'll have to borrow even more money, and you'll be in debt all your life.
and when you eventually die,(thats if you dont OD or get cancer or leukemia),
you probably won't have enough money for your own funeral, since the back
will claim all the things you own.

scenario two:
you get addicted, and lets say you have the money and the luxury to afford to feed your
terribly bad habit. you keep taking drugs, cause you're obviously addicted,
you can't stop, and your health deteriorates.
you start getting nasty side effects, like hair on your tongue, or shrinking testicles,
for example. (or facial hair and a deepened voice for girls).
sooner or later, you get stomach or liver cancer, maybe even brain cancer,
from all the build up of all those bad chemicals that you have dumped into your body,
theres nothing the doctors can do, you have 2 weeks to live, and you're
slowly excepting the fact that you were actually committing a slow and cruel suicide
subconsciously, or unconsciously (if you didn't know that drugs were bad for you).

ok. next ..
if YOU HAVE PREMARITAL SEX

scenario one:
you have premarital sex, the asshole of a boyfriend who got you pregnant leaves
you for an un-pregnant girl that he can happily fuck without having to worry
about that big bump getting in the way.
you are left with two choices. abortion, or giving birth to the baby and
screwing up your life forever.

case #1: you pick abortion
you have to deal with the fact that you killed an 'almost' human being that could've been
brought into the world, and you will have to defend yourself
from all the head strong christians that argue that a fetal is actually
a human being/god's creation.

case #2: you pick to give birth to the child
you spend 9 miserable months bearing the child, only to give birth to it,
finding that its superly FUGLY, cause the asshole that got you pregnant was
FULGY. because
fugly + average/over average/ yet another fugly = fulgy baby
and you have to work 3 jobs just to raise that fugly baby that you gave birth to.
and you will most likely live a poor and lonely life(unless you marry a superly rich dude)
with your fugly kid.

if you say.
"noooo. my boyfriend's not an asshole and will stick with me through thick and thin and bear responsiblilty."
then the out come will be like this.

scenario 2:
you and your boyfriend have the baby TOGETHER, the whole world envies you because
you guys are soo loving and have such a beautiful baby at such a young age.
your boyfriend's super rich, and you get to be a cool stay-home mom.
not the singaporean-auntie-like stay home mom, that wrap their kids in night market clothes, but the cool-stay-home-mom that takes her kid shopping with her,
and dresses her kid up in the latest trends (:

if YOU SMOKE.

scenario 1:
you smoke, you get addicted (most likely).
you keep buying more cigarettes and smoking because you're soo addicted.
soon, you're up to 2 packs of cigarettes a day.
on your 30th birthday, you find out that you have lung cancer.
you're depressed and sad. you go for chemotherapy for the next 2 years,
only to find out that you won't make it. and you suffer from complications,
and die a sudden death.

tragic ..

if YOU EAT VEGGIES.
well, all of us know that eating veggies is a good thing.
veggie burgers, french fries (they're veggies you know), salads.
brocolli, peas and carrots. all that good stuff. yeah. it will add 10 years onto your
life. guess you'll die 10 years wrinkley-er. haha

if YOU EXERCISE REGULARLY,
you will add another 10 years on to your life, above the other 10 years that you were
going to add on to your life from eating veggies (:
and you will be in great shape, you will be able to run 5 Ks.
you can beat all the other guys out at soccer. you will be nice and thin and
athletic. yeahh. its a win-win situation (:

if YOU WORK YOUR ASS OFF 3/4 OF YOUR LIFE.
you will be miserable 3/4 of your life. you work hard and then die.
yeahh. fun stuff.
ohh. and you would probably take 10 years off your life, so eating veggies ended
up being for nothing. but i guess you die 10 years un-wrinkly-er. lol. nice word.

i dont get why people work. unless you're like albert einstien or
that guy who created electricity .. whatever his name was or like some doctor who found out how to make people fly or something. if you're none of that, and your hard work isn't not gonna remain after you die, i really don't see the point.

why can't we all just be hobos and bum it out and live fun lives without working.
but then again, we wouldnt be able to get what we want.
and thats kinda depressing i guess.

if YOU LIVE HEALTHILY,
you would probably live till you're like 90, or even older than that.
maybe beat the guiness world record of oldest human being ..
but your life would be boring, your face would be boring, your mind would be boring,
because. lets face it.
to truely honestly have fun, you HAVE to break the rules and do some damage to
your mental, emotional, and sometimes even physical health.

yup. soo if you're healthy, you're boring.
yeah. end of story.

so, basically, my point is, life sucks.
but we all don't commit suicide, and we live on because of all the other things in life besides the sucky stuff, and the stuff in between birth and death.

we dont try to drown ourselves because no matter how sucky life is,
we always know that its not gonna stay sucky forever.
unless we get cancer or something and have like 2 weeks left to live.
but the 2 weeks would be the best 2 weeks of my life (:

i would break the law repeatedly and do whatever i want.
im gonna die anyways. who cares (:

xoxo,
Rach.

2007-11-18T09:06:00.001-08:00

i got my proofs.

godddd, they're bad.
i had like barely any makeup on that day.

at least i had enough on to cover my chicken pox scars.

yes, no?
let me know.

personally, i like the black and white one.

2007-11-12T13:40:00.001-08:00

ohhh god.
do you guys hate me now for not blogging for such a fuckass long time?

i bet i've lost all my blog readers.

anyways, i totally apologise about not blogging for like 3487948543 trizillion years?
but fret not.
the wait was worth it ..

at least i think.

cause i have to fill you guys in on all the parties,
and drunken nights,
and half sober girl's nights.

fights as well.

basically, all we've been doing were going to parties,
and getting drunk.

funtimes (:

ook.
first of ..
the halloween party at rachel's

all the girls wore ultra slutty costumes that covered like the top 1/4 of our butt,
and we wore lacy boy shorts under.
haha.

looked like kinky sex costumes?

DEF. too bad neither of us had anyone to impress cause
the people who were invited were just the people we always hang out with.

so we didnt have anyone to impress or turn on,
unless one of us liked someone in our group ..

but that would just totally ruin it.
well, maybe not.

whatever.
im babbling.

sidenote:
(i had a total makeup crisis because i slept ovver at gill's house the night before,
and left my entire makeup bag there, so i had to use rachel/gill's makeup,
which was about 4 shades too light.)

but whatever.

like i said .. i didnt have anyone to impress.
well, besides jake.

so don't freakout when you see my 5-shades-too-light face.
its halloween anyways.

ok. so
me - little red riding hood
emily - dorothy
gill - construction worker
rachel - baseball player
katherine - referee
rami - pimp
nizar - 80's tennis player
(god, i should've taken a picutre. he had a fro and everything)
skyler - pimp
trevor - pimp
zach - jamaican man
(hahah, zach's was funny too. he had dreads.)
jake - camel riding man
(you'll see ..)

kat was a referee and emily - dorothy ..
(from wizard of oz .. duh)

em (dorothy), rach (baseball player), gill (construction worker),
kat( referee(, me (little red riding hood).

i left the hood at gill's along with my makeup ..

trev's face was half cut off,
but theres rami and skyler ..

MATCHING TWIN PIMPS!
(trevor was a pimp too..)

thats skyler ..
begging me to take a picture of him ..

as soon as the guys left,
all the girls stripped down to our underwear and bras.

(halloween costumes can be superly uncomfortable)

considering i had 3 bras on with 2 tube socks stuffed in there.

and ..
that was when our sober-ness got up and left.

so thats kat.
with a buzz, not drunk yet.
just buzzed.

cause when she was full-on durnk,
she couldn't stop drawing on rachel's writing pad.

watch the video and you'll understand.

we were all pretty drunk at that point.

anyways,
the next day i left to go to a grown-up party.
(no alcohol involved)

and they were supposed to have a "band"

i was like
"oh, cool. they have a band. so its like a dance party? its gonna be fun."

but when i got there,

THIS ..

it was a bunch of kids playing ..

what kinda music is that?
jazz?

the day before halloween was
MISCHIEF NIGHT,
and thats when everyone's supposed to go out and TP (toilet paper)
trees, soap people's drive ways, egg houses, dig mailboxes.

ok.
i can just picture the big WTF with a huge question mark in your minds right now.

TPing -
its when you get rolls of toilet paper, and you throw them over trees,
so you get toilet paper all over the tree's in the person's front yard.
takes lots of time and is kinda hard to do,
but its extremely hard to get off, and when it rains,
it gets stuck on the tree for at least a month.
people make fun of you when your house gets TPed too. haha

SOAPING-
this is when you get a bar of soap, deoderant, or shaving cream,
(soap and shaving cream works the best)
and you write all over the persons driveway, sidewalk, basketball court, whatever.
any rough concrete surface.

it stays on there forever.
well, not literally, but close to forever.

it doesnt come off if it rains, storms, or hails.
and you have to take a power hose to hose it off,
if you use soap, theres gonna be lots of foam, making it even worse (:

PERFECT FOR MISCHEIF NIGHT (:

EGGING -
i bet you've seen this on tv,
& yes, it is done by us rude andd crude american kids.

you simply take eggs and throw it at people's
front doors, mailboxes, windows, garage doors, basketball hoops, whatever.

its superly disgusting,
and if you don't clean it up immediately,
IT STARTS TO ROT.

MAILBOX DIGGING-
the hardest to do, but pisses alot of people off.

its when you dig someone's mailbox out of the ground,
& leave it on their front porch.

the person has to move it all the way back to their lawn,
and bury it back into the earth.

the owner probably won't get their mail the next day either.

yup.
so thats what we do on mischief night.
so i had huddy, ladd, skyler and gill at my house,
but my mom won't let us go out,

so we left for gills.
we like packed at least 15 rolls of toilet paper into skyler's book bag
and walked forever.

in the end we didn't TP a single house.

so lauren picked us up and went to the gas station to get gas,
and to see if people will get us beer.

we didnt get out beers in the end,
but OMG.

i thought i was gonna die.
lauren is the
WORST DRIVER EVER.

she was driving on the freaking wrong side of the road,
and was like swerving left and right.

she even went up a curb,
and ran a red light.

i thought i was gonna die.

anyways, skyler had to sit in the trunk cause there wasnt any space,
and ladd, lauren and huddy were in there trying to buy beer.

we got bored
and took a video of him.

thats how southern boys speak.
with that strong country accent ..

sorry,
something happened to the video.
and im too lazy to upload it again ..

the next day,
i had a halloween party at my house.
(on halloween itself)

this time with only
me, jake, rachel, gill, skyler, huddy and ladd.

jake said that hes never going trick-or-treating with me again,
cause im the biggest trick-or-treater and i go to every single house.

i swear we walked for miles and said trick-or-treat with an innocent smile at least
fifty eight thousand times ..

thats all the candy i got.
quite a stash huh?

i already finished most of it ..

anyways,
idk when this party was,
but rachel threw a party for my birthday.

skyler was wearing my birthday girl tiara.

parker !!! he looks like hes in 7th grade huh ?

lol. we were eating popsicles
(thus the fire engine red lips and vampire teeth (: )

sardines !!

haha. so we were playing sardines,
and dana and abi were 'super smart' and hid in the neighbor's truck,
so when we found them, we all had to squeeze in the back of the truck ..

it was pretty bad.

when skyler sat on us,
i thought i was gonna die ..

sardines -
its like hide and seek,
only that 2 people hide, and the rest get in pairs to look for them.

when we find the 'hiders',
we have to hide with them until all the other people find us.
so the more people that find us,
the squishier it gets.

second round ..
hiding between the vents .
(stupid spot again ..)

we sat by the fire and played the snorting game ..
pretty hilarious.

next major event ..
MY BIRTHDAY!

( which was on november 7th, and im obviously blogging 26 years late)

that was my awesome cake which i customized ..

i told the lady to make the icing hot pink,
with turqoise on the sides,
and turqoise, blue and orange polka dots of different sizes ..

the green turned out looking shitty green,
and there were like hugeass blobs of icing instead of 'polka dots',
and the turqoise looked more like a sky blue.

but whatever.
its still cute.

and super tasty.
it was vanilla cake,
with Parisian strawberry filling.

and it looks like crayola crayons (:

that was at chuck e. cheeses.

its like an arcade for little kids.
hahahha.
we were the oldest ones there.

(excuse my mom's utterly POOR PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS)

we beat the skeeball high score at least 8 times,
and the boys beat the basketball high score like twice,
so we ended up with like 4000 tickets,
and i got a hugeass bear (:

its like huge.
ill take a picture of it.

PRESENTS!

well, i uploaded pictures of them but i accidentally deleted them,
and im too lazy to upload it again because i'll have to move it all the way to the bottom of the screen.

what a chore ..

so anyways,
i'll list my presents first,
and then i'll take pictures next time (:

sooo .. i got,

2 guitars (for guitar hero)
guitar hero 1
guitar hero 2
guitar hero 3
$100
UGG boots (:
$20 from ashton
2 stuffed animal bunnies (cause i wanted real bunnies but my mom told my friends NO)
pair of random earings from amsterdam (more on that)
a necklace from erin
$ from friends
jake's present

didnt really get much this year.
nothing big,
except for my UGGs and guitar hero.

ok,
so my dad got me this random pair of earrings form like the airport at amsterdam,
cause he got my mom a diamond ring and necklace,
and he got my sister a swarovski crystal or whatever necklace,
and he didnt want me to feel left out because he was buying me guitar hero.

but the earrings were sooo ugly.
i don't even remember where i put them ..

why cant i just get like a ring or necklace?

jake's present.
it was pink and fuzzy.
hahaha.
nick kept making fun o fhim cause he was carrying it for me.
lol

chocolate, flowers,
and this CD thing.

it was cute.

alright, so this is my post
which i've been procrastinate-blogging for the last 4 days.
5 actually, cause i've been uploading pics since wednesday.

anyway,
i'll be blogging about more parties,
the renaissance fair,
and the bonfire,
as well as beer pong in the garage in my next post (:

new song coming up too ..

xoxo,
rach

2007-10-16T18:11:00.000-07:00

ook. so i tried uploading pics,
but the stupid thing said that theres some problem or whatever.

so the rest of my homecoming pics are on my MYSPACE,
and FRIENDSTER

2007-10-08T15:43:00.000-07:00

arnt you sooo very proud of me?
i've blogged TWO days IN A ROW (:

im good like that (:

anyways,
you guys have been asking about pictures of my phone ..

this is the phone i got.

a sony erricson w850i

its a walkman slider,
and it takes REALLY good pictures.

theres even this function in it called the picture dj,
and you can edit your picture right in your cell,
adding effects and what not.

theres also a music DJ and video DJ for you to edit music and videos.

also comes with a shake control feature,
where you shake the phone,

it shuffles and changes your song.

pretty fun.

its supposed to have like the longest battery power out there or whatever,
but it doesnt really last that long.

i have to charge it every night,
if not the battery runs out.

it comes in grey and blue,
and orange and white.

(i heard they have a pink one out, but i couldn't find it)

anyways,
yeah. i got the white one.

but the Grey one looks like this.

whites prettier huh?

ooh.
and the best part is,

it comes with the sims 2 pets,
ms pac man,
bejeweled,
and diner dash already downloaded in the phone for you.

so it makes for great entertainment during class.

the only downside to the phone is that the buttons are superly small,
and since its a slider,
i always tend to miss the top row of buttons when im texting fast.

but other than that,
i love it (:

(i feel like im doing an ad for sony.)

ooh well,
my ap world text is sitting there calling my name.

gonna read up and then i'll be watching private practice,
or the new season of greys,
or america's next top model.

(all of which i've tivo-ed)

haha. i know im spoilt.
actually, not really.

im really not spoiled at allllll.

ook.
time to work my ass off at AP world.

sean, never take AP classes in your life.
its soooo time consuming.

ooh.
and my dad just got us this new phone plan for our house phone,

you pay $6 and you can have unlimited calling to singapore and sweden,
isreal as well.

soo, feel free to call me (:

hopefully more exciting things to blog about tomorrow.

xoxo,
Rach

2007-10-07T10:42:00.000-07:00

i bet right now in the back of your little minds,
your brains are screaming "YESYESYES! she finally blogged"

OR MAYBE NOT ..

anyhow, i feel that slight sense of guilt everytime
i come on here to look at tags, because i would be pissed
if i came onto this blog everyday,
only to the disapointment of the same words and the same post ..

so, yeah.
im blogging.

overview of this week:

tuesday:

we got picked up after school and went for high tea.
me and gill were trying to be all lady-like,
but it wasnt exactly working out.

we were dropping stuff all over the place,
and laughing wayyyy too loud.

and we ended up really hyper cause we ate all the sugar cubes.

i love scones with clauded cream and the little finger sandwiches (:
sooo good.
we're gonna make high tea like a weekly thing if possible.

its uber expensive though.

yesterday

this morning

i got up at 9 and went golfing with my dad and my brother,
im getting surprisingly better (:

my dad was proud of me.
hahaha

i didnt really do much all week,
just stayed home and hung with my dad.

(he was back for a week,
but he just left like an hour ago.)

not gonna see him till next month.

ooh.
while daddy was back,
got me a new phone (:

(well, actually he got all of us new phones,
so im really not that special)

[no more thumb spraining troubles.
or anything like that to worry about (:]

its a sony erricson wsomenumberi phone.
a slider,
and its orange and white.

and when u shake the phone,
it shuffles and changes your song.

i had a blast shaking it ..

it has a padometer and a fitness thing,
and calorie counter in there too.

seriously coolest thing everrr.
and i got unlimited texting,
so i've been texting nonstop.

anyways,
yesterday we drove up to raleigh to go dress shopping,
and went to check out my sisters apartment.

and then went to triangle town mall to look for a dress.

THIS SEASON PISSES ME OFF
(like the fashion season. not fall. i love fall!)

why cant they sell freaking LONG GOWN-LIKE BUT NOT GOWNISH DRESSES?
its seriously not that hard.

or maybe even DRESSES THAT FIT UNCHUBBY, UNBUSTY GIRLS?

seriously not asking for too much here.
just one drop dead gorgeous dress, and im satisfied.

yup. it just pisses me off to the point of pure disgust
that americans are soo fuckass fat.

come on ..
in other parts of the world,
people arnt superly big and boobalicious so why don't u acutally make some dresses
that fit normal people?

lidjfksdlfjidcoewnrw

so, anyways.
i saw this REALLY REALLY REALLY nice dress at this boutique called body collections,

it was gorgeous.

it was long, and a stretch silk material,
halter with a a rhinestone brooch in the middle and a plunging neck line,

flowy bottom
(but not overwhelmingly mermaidishy)

it came in a rose-ish color and a gorgeous silky dark brown.
i wanted the rose colored one,
but they didnt have a small.

so the person was like:
why dont you try on the brown?

so i got all excited and skipped on over to the dressing room,
and omggg.

the padded boobs swen to the insides of the dress was ginormous.
(it was seriously the size of my head)

and it wont even stay up in the back.

i mean.
get real.

if a girl can fit into a small,
its unlikly that she will have boobs the size of my
head (which is pretty averagely sized).

so basically,
the designer designed this dress to fit super skinny girls with
silicone boobs.

it pissed me off sooo bad.
AND THEY DIDN'T HAVE AN XS.

the world (or the states at least) is slowly evolving into a
plastic sugery based, size-obsessed,obesity filled
world of its own.

im mean.
boobs are made of fats right?

and i know im a 32 double A,
but that thing was seriously at least a C and the waist was probably a 38.

go run some laps guys.
and make some smaller dresses.

ook. end of my rant.
so anyways,
im just going to wear that short orange dress that i got,
that came with superly padded ginormous stitched in boobs.

and i got new strappy stilettos in a metallic gold to go with the dress,
and a ultra shimmery
hurts-your-eyes-so-much-you-can-see-it-from-space
gold clutch.

a little exaggeration on the shimmery-ness.

but yeah.
i really don't like my outfit.

AND I WANT A LONG DRESS
damn it.

ook.
i have some math that needs to be done ASAP,
and some AP world reading to catch up on.

ooh. the boringness of homework.

ooh. and i've been searching for a guitarhero game for my wii.
(i might ask for that for my birthday)

maybe that from dad,
and laser hair removal from mom.

havn't decided on which part i want my body hair removed.

i was thinking underarms and legs,
but i want my bikini area and even crotch removed too.

ahahha.

still trying to decide on that.
anyways,
i'll have pictures of my shopping stash from yesterday and my dress on some time this week.

until then,
happy columbus day!

(omgg soo cheesy)

xoxo,
rach

2007-09-30T18:55:00.001-07:00

alright..
im waitig for my songs to load, cause i got this new speaker thing,

its pretty snazzy.

anyways, dramadramadramadramadrama

its never gonna stop ..
is it?

now i REALLY don't feel like going back to school tomorrow,
just in case drama stirs up againn.

drama mama.
hahaa.
reminds me of bahama mama.

anyways,

my dad's home
my sister came home for a day and then left
my sister's ex boyfriend tried to kill her (no shit)
jake accused me of flirting with dylan
i got a dress (not for homecoming though. but its pretty)

the stuff on that list are DEFINITELY the drama-causers.
except for my dress.

it was kind of an uplifter (:

i'll probably wear it to twirp,
because its too short to be a homecoming dress.

ooh. and i cleaned my room!

and im getting my new phone on ..
tuesday? or wednesday?

or maybe, possibly,
even thursday?

im excited though.
i've been needing a new phone.
as i posted a couple days back ..
my 8 button isnt working.

well, it is ..
but u have to like press down hard.

it could really sprain my thumb when im texting or dailing.
so .. yeah.
that means its time for a new phone (:

alright.
im gonna crash on my bed and talk to jake on the phone.
(changed my bedspread .. its a nice shade of hotpink and lime green,
really nice to wake up to ..)

(jake's phone number doesnt have an 8 in it)
so.. no worries.
no thumb spraining actions are gonna occur anytime soon.

xoxo,
rach

funeral outfits

2007-09-28T21:42:00.000-07:00

i had to go for grandma toni's funeral/memorial service today, so we had to dress in black.

thats the thing i don't get.

why do people dress in black from head to toe at funerals ?

if i were the dead person,
i would want everyone to have a party and celebrate my life.
not mourn my death.

being the bimbo that i am,
i decided to look cute at grandma toni's funeral (:

she would appreciate that .. i think.

i decided to wear a black dress,
that made me look slightly prego.

so i slung on a waist belt,
and minimized my jewelry for respect.

i even made my eye makeup look cloudy, to make it seem
like my eyes were watering (:

and then i put my hair into a low sleek pony tail, positioned slighty to the side, with a thin goldhead band to make me look sweet (:

i was soo proud of myself (:
my sister tried to achieve the same look,
but ended up looking alittle to the slutty side.

she wore a snug and short black polo dress,
with rainbows,
and her bangs poofed up.

she didnt put on makeup though ..

so, anyways ..
if i die anytime soon -

remember to wear bright sunny colors and party hats (:
bring alchohol too.
it will be even more awesome if everyone were drunk at my funeral.

haha.

xoxo,
Rach.

2007-09-26T20:01:00.000-07:00

i have to make this quick,
but just for the sake of how much i get irritated and annoyed at suspense,
(not like im implying that you guys are the same way)
im gonna tell you guys how jake asked me to homecoming :]

alright.
im not expecting everyone to be in awe after reading this,
but i think its cute, so thats all that matters yeah?

ook. so it was last friday?
im pretty sure.

gill AND jake both packed me a lunch in little cute lunch bags,
as a surprise.

so, i ended up with 2 lunches.

anyways. i got to my locker and opened it, and i saw this pretty pale yellow gift bag sitting in my locker, and i thought it was a gift .

so i reached up to grab it,
but jake popped up behind me and said that i can't open it.

so, i waited till lunch,
and i was STARVING, so i walked into the courtyard and tried to grab the bag out of jake's hand, but he said that he wasnt done yet?

so i got pissed cause i was starving,
(and im not a happy camper when im starving)

so, he left.
(we later found out that he went to heat it up in the microwave and put the icing on..)

i was in the midst of complaining about how he won't let me eat,
and we saw jake skipping through the garden path (yes, he was skipping)

gill leaned over and was like:
"omg. he just skipped. OMGG. HE JUST DID IT AGAIN."

so he handed me this thing wrapped in plastic,
and i opened it and saw a toaster strudel .

click toaster strudel if you don't know what it is ..

blueberry toaster strudel to be exact ..
(my favorite kind)

and on it, the icing spelled out -
homecoming?

it was reallyyy cute.
because:

background history:
every year, on my birthday, my mom makes me a toaster strudel,
and i get 2 packs of icing
because its my special day (:

and that day, he gave me FOUR PACKS of icing
thats why i thought it was cute (:

sooo, yup.
be jealous bitches.
now all i need is a homecoming dress ..

(i'll probably get one this weekend when my dad gets back.)
DADDY'S PAYING!!!

in MAJOR NEED of a new phone too ..
the "8" button on my phone isnt working .
I CANT PRESS IT!

2007-09-25T17:36:00.000-07:00

everybody freak out!

well, good news and bad news guys ..
i thought that the weather was turning cold, and i was worried about when i'll get to wear the 9 pairs of shorts that i got on saturday ..

well, its actually 8 pairs of shorts and one skirt to be exact ..

my stash from abercrombie :
6 pairs of shorts,
2 pairs of pajama pants,
a sweater,
and i got a shirt too, but its washing ..

no tops you ask?
well, i was on a mission for shorts, and i kind of ODed on it.

more overdose on shorts ..

holister ..
a tank,
shirt,
2 pairs of shorts,
and a skirt.

note: no tops again?
next mission is to get new tops.

i got a dress from charlotte russe as well ..

cute and casual ?
just right for school ..

anyways. im in serious need of a homecoming dress.
next mission: HOMECOMING DRESS + SHOES!

i just haven't found the time to go look at every store for the perfect homecoming dress,
and homecoming is 17 days away!

can you say:
freakk outttt?

not only do i have pressure to get my homecoming dress fast,
i have jake and his mom stressing me to get it ASAP so that they can go shopping for his suit and shirt and tie to match my dress ..

ooh god.
save me?

well, i have a fun week ahead for me .. hopefully.

all my friends went out to watch rachel and dana's volleyball game today,
but i stayed at ome to finish assignments (:

arn't you proud of me?
im such a good little girl (:

but i seriously doo have alot on my list-of-things-to-do.

i even added a to-do checklist on my google sidebar to keep me on track.
24 hours is definitely not enough for me.

well, it would be,
if you took all the time wasted on meals, getting dressed, sleeping,
and all possible and required tasks, necessary for living ..

but the first priorities on my list are -
reading for english
catching up in AP world
getting in shape for homecoming
AP test
AP world project
organize room
paint my nails

hell, i don't even have time to paint my nails.
ugh. AP lasses are soo time consuming.
i just can't keep up with it.

at leats i have to weekend to look forward to.

friday: grandma toni's memorial service

saturday: soccer and hopefully shopping,
and then going over to calvin's to freaking drink the night and troubles away

my dad's coming back from sweden on saturday night too (:
maine's coming back on friday.
hopefully she will pcik me up early from school.

in serious need of time and organization.
but i'll try to squeeze in a couple of posts here and there.

jake better not piss me off tomorrow.
i just can't deal with it.

xoxo,
rach

2007-09-18T19:13:00.000-07:00

alrighttt.
soo, my fuckass pictures finally finished loading :]
it took 5 fuckass days.
well, not really. i kind of procrastinated a little,
but blogger does take a long time to load pictures.

know of any faster way to upload 'em?

anyways, this week has been funn :]

well, its more like these past 2 weeks.
so, i don't think i filled you guys in on rachel lindsey's sweet 16 birthday bashh,
but it was fuckass awesome [:

it was soooo much fun!

alright. before i start with that, i have to give you the verdict of the fight. just for following up on the story:

jake smith: 5 days OSS
travis: 5 days OSS
jake ridlon: 3 days OSS
jake & skyler: threatened jake smith and travis not to say anything so they got off OSS-less.

smartasses ..

anyways, the last post i posted was on friday?
about the fight and rachel's birthday celebration in school?

so, she had a party the next day, on saturday, and it was soo much fun :]
she invited like 150 people, but appox. 100 showed up, becasue our school had a football game.

so, i got ready, went over to jake's and then my mom drove us to rachel's.

that was my outfit. cute huh?
got the top from Mero Voda, and the shorts from Abercrombie.

the courtyard?
best makeout place everrrr :]
haha

the bow in the back of my top kept coming undone,
so jake had to keep tieing and re-tieing and then tieing again ..

so, when we got to rachel's all of us just sat around the pool and talked and threw M&Ms into each other's mouths.

(from here on out, i'll look fuckass FUGLY in every single picture cause i was all danced out with no emrgency makeup .. oh-so-tragic)

dylan, and some random kid who's name i dont know.
i don't even know why this pictures in here.
i didnt take it ..

drew (hes really cute)
rachel (birthday girl)
& skyler (doushe bag)
dancing?

we were still sitting around the fireplace ..
it was superly cold.

after that, we went and danced a little.
(she got a freaking live DJ and strobe lights and everything.)

and then, went inside to play pool and drink margaritas.
(she had a whole margarita machine with little umbrella decorative sticks too)

and then it was cake timeee

that cake alone cost like $350.
shes sooo spoiled.
like my birthday party will barely cost $300, and her cake already topped that ..

they had little sparklers as candlees :]

inside drinking margaritas ..

ohh. and did i ever tell you what rich,
spoiled american teenagers get on their sweet 16?

they get CARS.

yes, the solid metal plating with 4 wheels on the bottom with a steering wheel inside for you to twist and turn in whatever direction you wish ..

not a little toy car with a little steering wheel that breaks off as soon as you try to steer it ..

A REAL CAR.

she got a brand new 2007 jeep liberty.
this little black baby.
(which is similar to the car i want - a jeep sport, or a mini cooper, or a range rover)

we were eating that $350 cake,
which consisted of 50% cake, 10% frosting and 40% fondant.

it was good though.
everyone hates fondant, but i think it tastes like sugar.

and each layer was a different flavor too.

the top layer was vanilla with vanilla frosting,
second layer was chocolate cake with cookies and cream frosting,
and the bottom layer was vanilla with strawberries and cream frosting.

after everyone left,
me, gill, kathryn, rachel's brother, rachel, and jesse,
ate the bottom layer with our fingers.
it was sooo good (:

anyways, i took the buttercream frosting and smothered it all over jake's face.
:]

DANCE FLOORRRRRR :]

watch the video to see the full effect.
it was a freaking club in her backyard.

jake and skyler jumped into the pool and got all wet and soaked and all of them came running up trying to hug me ..

soo wet and nasty ..

after the party, i went back to gill's and slept over.
and then we went to the mall and olive garden for lunch ..
hence the rest of the pictures ..

well, i gotta go take a shower.
just got back from my soccer match, and we won 0-5 (:
ooh yeahh.

next post: how jake asked me to homecoming !
(he asked me yesterday and i said yes, but i'll build suspense and tell you guys tomorrow or something )

2007-09-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

I HATE DRAMA.

soo much has happened these couple of days.
lets start with friday ..

so, we celebrated rachel's birthday in school on friday, and we made this superly cool sandwhich board thing for her to wear around school. haha. it said 'it's my sweet sixteen' on the front, and 'im the birthday girl' on the back.

we also got her this superly cool party hat made of felt with a 16 on it.

we made her walk all around school with it on. we also got her floatable ballons. it was soo cute (:

we got there early to decorate her locker too
and jake and skyler got us macdonalds for breakfast.

welcome to the hallways of northwest high school (:

oook.
so, to the dramaaaaa ..

first of, i failed math, and its only the second week of school.
secondly, we had a tornado fire it wasn't really a tornado fire, but there was a tornado warning, and we had to get into our positions and crouch down on the ground, covering our heads.

it was POURING outside,
considering the fact that we've been in a drought cause it hasn't rained in a month until friday ..

so due to the tornado warning,
they ket us in school till 4pm, in our 'safety positions' because they said it was dangerrous for us to be out of the building.

and during the tornado warning,
the fire alarm went off.

it was freaking chaos. there were all these sirens going off, and people trying to call theyre parents, and everyone worried about the tornado ..

but at like 4pm, the tornado passed so we were let out.
everyone was soo freaking happy, we all started running and the guys were like yelling
' im free from the fire tornado!'

lol.
losersssss.

im really craving some pie and cake and icecream right now,
so im gonna eat, and then continue with this post.

but this isn't the end of the drama yet ..
its still to comeeee.

ook.
i just ate like 6 pound of food and im sooo stuffed now.

anyways, after the 'fire tornado' every one was all hyper and ran around outside, while it was pouring, and me, gill, jake, skyler, huddy, dylan, and chance were all standing in the rain talking.

and then jake smith and travis (the ones i went to homecoming with) came up to jake (our jake) and pushed him into the wall.

okkk. hold up.
some background info first:
(so jake and travis got mad that me rachel and gill started hanging out with jake and skyler instead of them, and they've been wanting to fight jake and skyler. stupid? i knoww)

alright. back to the story.
jake smith came up and pushed jake ridlon into the wall, and they had like a staring thing, and then jake smith and travis walked off.

so, like 5 minutes after, gill skyler and chance went upstairs to gill's locker, and then after awhile me huddy and jake went up.

jake smith and travis followed us up, and they like hid in the corner or the stairwell.
so when we were opening the doors into the stairwell, jake smith like charged from the corner and pushed jake into the wall and punched him.

then jake ridlon punched jake smith in the face, and skyler turned around to help jake ridlon, but travis punched him from the back and blindsighted him, and skyler like blacked out for awhile.

me and gill just stood there like shocked and we didnt know what to do.
then i saw travis like about to push skyler down the stairs, and i yelled
'don't push him down the stairs!!!"

and the next thing i knew,
skyler got nailed into the steps and hit his face on the step.

OhMyGosh.
you should have seen jake and huddy.

they got soo freaking mad, all of them like charged toward travis, about to beat him up.
but then the ashhole of a jerk, got up and ran down the stairs.

i was soo freaking worried about skyler.

when he got up, his eye was all swollen and he was bleeding, and it was soo not fair because he totally got blindsighted.

he like kicked off his flipflops and ran downstairs to go beat travis up, but then jake ran down stairs and got into the car and sped off.

and the worst, jerkiest thing they did was ..
THEY LEFT JAKE'S GIRL FRIEND BEHIND.

what fucking jerks.

when gill went downstairs to get skyler, she said that jordan was like soo scared she was shaking. i felt bad.

but we don't like jordan anyways,
so who cares?

so after that, they got caught by the administrators and had to go tell them what happened, and me and gill had to write our testimonys, which were more like essays, but they were pretty funny.

we basically blamed the whole thing on jake smith and travis.

so after we got home,
tsome random girl called gill's cell, and fucking cussed us out.

its was like:
(m- me and gill, g- random girl)
m:hello?
g: you fucking bitch! who the fuck do you think you are?
m: whatt? whos this?
g: this is lauren fucking logan?
m: who's lauren logan?
g: im ladd's fucking sister
m: who's ladd?
g: don't fucking try to act like a bitch. you know who the fuck i am.
m: uhh. yeahh .. we dont?
g: just never fucking talk to skyler thomas fucking ever again.

and then she hung up.
RANDOMNESS?

so we called skyler and found out that the girl is his cousin, whos a senior that goes to my school, and we were like
"then why did she tell us not to talk to you?"

and he was like idk ..

then, after we hung up, jake called and said that jake and travis were on their way to jake's house, and he said that they're blaming everything on me and gill.

they said that
" we told jake smith and travis that jake and skyler wanted to kick theyre asses so they wanted to fight?"

yeahh .. not really ?
no one ever said that.

they were the ones who wanted to fight first and got all into it so don't blame it on us when they're about to get suspended and when skyler's about to press charges.

doesnt work like that ..

2007-09-13T05:32:00.000-07:00

hey.

i havn't blogged in 11 days.
HAHA. im gonna try to make it a point to blog everyday?

but im always sooo busy with school,
and homework, and hanging out,
and stuff like that ..
i barely have time to talk on the phoneee.

anyways, im staying home from school today,
because i think im coming down with a cold,
and i bruised my ankle REALLY bad at soccer yesterday,
so i won't be able to get to classes in time ..
so why don't i just stay at home?

right?
but the main reason,
is because im tired and i didn't do my homework.
hahahaha.

anyways,
school's been SUPERLY hard.
and i've been working hard (:

like i've NEVER WORKED THIS HARD IN MY LIFEEE.

anyways, school has been REALLY fun (:
like im actually enjoying school for once,
despite the shitload of work we have ..

i sit next to jake in bio now,
and in second period i sit next to ashton,
in 3rd i sit like a seat away from jake and huddy sits across the room,
(but we still manage to talk).

so, you can kinda tell that theres alot of talking action going on (:

ook.
so what i;ve been doing over the past 11 days?

last saturday, we went to the carolina football game
in chapel hill.

god, i've NEVER seen soo much carolina blue in my lifeee.
and im not a carolina fan either.

im a state fan,
and i about puked when i saw all that blue.

i'll post pictures in the next post (:
or you might have already seen them in my friendster or myspace.

so i slept over at gills on friday,
and then we went for the game,
and then went out to eat pancakes at like 12.30
and then jake and skyler sent us home and i slept over again.

last friday,
we went to the cabin and hung out there.
didn't drive the golfcart this time (:

ok .. sidetrack -
idk if i've already told you guys this story,
but the last time we were at the cabin,
gill was driving the golf cart around the meadows,
and she tried to drift,
and ended up flipping the whole golf cart onto its side.

jake jumped off, and i got thrown like 8 feet,
and skyler got pinned under the golf cart.
gill was fine cause skyler was holding her up.
hahhaa.
but now skyler has a superly bruised pinky.
kinda funny.

ook.
so we went to the cabin and ordered pizza,
and we played drinking games.
like P.I.M.P. and the higer lower suit game.
and if you lose you have to like chug this cup full of whiskey.

which TASTES LIKE SHIT.
pure shit.

sooo gross.
so, obviously i lost,
and ended up taking like 12 shots,
and obviously ended up drunk.

hahaha.
jake and gill were telling me all the stuff i was doing.
LOL.

jake siad he carried me like a fireman
and i was eating a TON of chocolate,
and when we got back to gill's house,
i ate like 6 slices of pizza with icecream on it.

and i was trying to make myself throw up.
hahahhaa.

buttttttt.
we got caught drinking.

we got caught the day after cause jake's grandpa
went into the cabin and saw the whiskey and the beer in the fridge.

it was all GILL'S FAULT.
me and jake were outside,
and then we saw his mom's car pull up,
so we ran into the cabin and told gill to put all the stuff away,
and she put the beer in the fridge.

she was even like
"im gonna save it for later."

so we forgot it was in there,
and they found it there in cups,
so now, we're banned from the cabin.

they even accused us of stealing the car and going for a joy ride?
yeahh right.

not like we're gonna steal the car and drive it around the meadows
when we're like half drunk.
sooo totally made uppp.

and then slept over at gill's again.
(i might as well just move in and live with her huh?)
then soccer in the morning,
mall in the afternoon,
and then went back to gill's house.

skyler was there,
and we hung out with cam too.

the next day, jake accused me of liking cam and flirting with him,
even though he wasn't there to witness any of it,
but is a long story ..

me gill and skyler had one of our BFF days,
and we sat in front of the tv with a tub of icecream and 3 spoons,
and we just sat there and watched america's next top model,
while eating icecream with blankets over us.

hahaha.
skyler was like
"i don't get how girls can just sit in front of the tv,
and watch the same show for 3 hours."

thats just what girls do (:
you should see me and gill when we're hungry or craving something
in the middle of the night.

we go downstairs to make brownies or cookies,
but we end up eating all the batter.

or we sit on the kitchen counter with forks and just eat cake (:
haha.

i LOVE being a girl (:
guys should seriously be jealous that they're not born
the same sex ..

anyways,
i was supposed to go to gill's house today after school,
but i dont think my mom will let me go anymore because i didnt go to
school today.

and we're supposed to go to the mall tomorrow,
but probably not gonna be allowed.

and then rachel's party's on saturday.
her sweet 16 (:

its supposed to be like the biggest thing in school this week,
cause she invited like 114 people or something like that.

but yeah.
going for that.
and hopefully more drinking?

hhahahaa.
anyways,
people are getting their homecoming dates situated,
even though the homecoming dance is a month away,
on october the 13th.

me and jake are going together,
and i told him that he has to ask me to go in a cute way.
haha.

i still have to go shopping for my homecoming dress.
i REALLY want to wear my blue one that i wore last year,
but you can't wear the same dress!!

ahhh!
sooo where am i gonna wear that super formal long dress that makes
me look superly tall and skinny?

yeah.
no whereeeeee.

i hate dresses.
you spend sooo much freaking money on them and then you wear it for one dance,
and you have no where else to wear it to.

iuyirytoiuoiujdiofusdfsf.
we need more formal parties and dances to go to ..
thank you very much.

anyways,
im TOTALLY, UTTERLY, DESPERATELY
in love with cristiano ronaldo, and totti (:

also in love with ryan sheckler (:
but i don't have a picture of him.
but its soccer season now,
so all my attention is focused on soccer players.
baseball players as well,
like cole hamels and chase utley,
but soccer players for now (:

cristiano (:

totti (:

marry me?
pretty pleaseeeee.

and my latest collages.

alright.
im gonna be lazy an go lay on my couch.
au revoir

2007-09-02T23:41:00.000-07:00

343209482 new pictures on friendster
http://profiles.friendster.com/rachh

2007-08-28T20:04:00.000-07:00

MIDNIGHT CRAVINGS
I was having a super midnight craving for cereal ..

so, here i am,
sitting in front of the computer,
trying to blog about my first day at school,
while eating cereal with mountains of sugar from a cup.

im such a sugarholic.
probably the best candidate for cancer,
or diabetes,
not like im stating that i want to get it ..

anyways,
school today, was ..
alright i guess.

not really what i expected it to be.
but i guess things can't really go MY way,
considering my hideous face,
covered with chicken pox scabs and scars ..

i feel sooo fugly .

im sick of school already ..
can you imagine that?

my classes are superly hard,
and my teachers are bitches.
total bitches.

as always,
i get a bunch of snobby little fugly teachers,
that are seriously in need of a life and
a serious case of needing to get laid ..

okkk, whatever ..
i know the classes are hard,
because i chose to take those hard classes,
but i mean ..

telling us that its a college level class?

now, thats going wayyy too far.
i can already tell im gonna hate AP world,
but at least i'll be able to go to school and show off my new outfits (:

if only my face wasn't covered with scabs ..

i might just peel all the fugly little red dots
off my face tonight,
regardless of the scars they're gonna leave.

i mean ..
thats what scar creams and laser treatments are for right?

and makeupp ..
it always helps everything (:

night guys ..
im done with my midnight snack.
off to bed (:

2007-08-27T19:18:00.000-07:00

before school nerves.
its really pissing me off ..
my sister took my nail polish remover to college,
i can't find my other one.

jake's giving me a hard time about talking to
skyler more than i talk to him.

i got in a huge fight with my mom so im gonna have
to take the bus to school tomorrow,
pissing me offfffff.

school better go perfect tomorrow,
if not,
i'll cry.

2007-08-27T12:09:00.000-07:00

is overrrrrrrrrrr !!!
tomorrow marks the official end of summerrrrrr!
soo its
goodbye summer,
hellooo DRAMA

IM GONNA MISS YOUUUU

ALRIGHT ..

i know, iknowiknowiknow.
im a stupid person who has a very pretty blog ..
buttt rarely blogs ..

well, life has been rather boring,
and itchy, as a matter of fact ..

butt, i decided im officially OVERRR the stupid chicken pox,
even though im really not,
but im still going to go to school tomorrow,
with makeup caked on my face to hide all my chicken pox ..

thank godd for makeup huh?

anyways,
i just got back from gill's
and we pciked out all her outfits for the whole of this week.

andd, we picked out mine (:
its superly cute,
even though its not new,
but well, fairly neww.

the outfit for tuesday (first day of schoolllll)
is:

a holister tank top (with blue and turqoise hearts all over it and of course, the holister sign)
an abercrombie sweater thing (to cover up my chicken pox on my back)
mini jean skirt
a striped turqoise holister bag
flatsssss (:

i think thats a good plan ..
even though just about every normal, non-emo/punk
girl wears on the first day of school.

i guess its kind of a rule huh?
to make it easier for guys to compare us?

the things we do to get attention from guys ..

gill's outfit is superly cute too.
its an abercrombie skirt and an abercrombie tanktop with her new
plaid holister bag and new holister flipflops ..

and im getting up early and popping over to her house for breakfast
and to make sure we both look good for school.

haha.
i love it (:

the excitement of the first day of school,
all the new people,
new classes,
new hot guys to stare at ..
and definately the new weird teachers .

well,
ill be a solphmore this year,
sooo im a freshie nooo more (:

im moving up in life dudee.
literally .

well, we're having a sleepover at the cabin this weekend,
with jake skyler and gill,
to gossip about all the new people and stuff like that,
which is gonna be AWESOME .

i love my friends mucho gusto.
end of story.

and lunch this year is gonna be superly awesome,
because all of us are in thee same lunch (:

we don't have any classes together though,
except for me and jake.
we have bio and english togetherr.

and all our lockers are together.
well, not together literally, but in the same building at least ..
me and jakes are on the bottom floor of the new building,
and skylers and gills are on the top floor.

and my lockers gonna be AWESOME,
basically communication central,
like how our pe lockers were last year ..

we got cork boards and they all have our name on them,
and they're going in my locker so that it will be easier to post
sticky notes.

and they all have my locker combination,
which i dontt.

lol.
and i have a top locker this yearr (:

alright.
this is a superly long postt,
i think.

and i need to go paint my nails for school tomorrow.
still havnt decided on what color though.

but this post is definately dedicated to :

SUMMER '07
you've been fucking awesome,
and i can't wait till next year (:

2007-08-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

DOWN WITH THE CHICKEN POXXX!

i wont be blogging for awhile,
because my chicken pox are only getting worse,
but jake, skyler and gill have been coming over everyday keeping me company,
and playing boardgames and watching movies with me,

so i've been doing pretty good entertainment wise,
but my face is fugly !!!

jake and skyler came over today at like 2 and woke us up,
and i was feeling AWFUL.. miserable!

i got up and went into the bathroom and broke down.

but THANK GOD i have the bestest freinds and boyfriend in the worldddd.
skyler and gill gave me air kisses and helped me rub my back,
and jake hugged me and told me that
its ok, and that im sitll beautiful.

but i still cried forever after that ..

anyways, i'll update more
when i get the chance.

but until then,
pleaseeeeeeeeee pray/hope/wish that my chicken pox will
clear up before school starts next tuesdayyy!

im sickk of having pox all over meeee.
its HORRIBLE!

2007-08-16T13:36:00.000-07:00

I TOTALLY FUCKASS APOLOGISE FOR NOT BLOGGING FOR LIKE 16 YEARS.

haha.
anyways,
IM BACK IN THE STATES,
and have been here for about 8 days =x

haha.
well, idk if ive told any of u guys,
but me and my sister flew back by ourselves last thursday,
because my brother had chicken pox,
and he wasnt allowed on the plane.

and i havnt gotten chicken pox yet,
so they were afraid that i would breakout with chicken pox too,
so they ssent me back as early as possible,
and my mom and joel stayed back in sweden for another week.

they're arriving today.

so, me and maine have been living by oursleves,
for a whole week,
without parents (:

me and gill have been alternating houses for the past week,
so heres what i did since ive been back.

thursday: arrived
friday: jake came over (couldnt spend the night though
saturday: movies with jake skyler and gill (rush hour 3 )
and then gill spent the night
sunday: slept over at gill's
monday: cabin and slept over at gills AGAIN
tuesday: gill slept over
wednesday: gill slept over AGAIN
thursday: mom arrived
friday: batting cages and dinner with gill and sky, and then slept over at gill's AGAIN
saturday: today .. got back from gills at like 5

so, thats how my weeksd been since i got back.
and i typed the top part a couple days ago,
but OF COURSE, i got ADD and went to do something else and forgot
about it.

lucky thing blogger saves posts automatically now (:

anyways,
this is ..

MILAN!!
the cute little four-year old that sat next to us on the plane.

hes sooo cute (:

memories of sweden :

my superly hot boyfriend.
well, actually its more like ex-boyfriend.
but .. we're still working things out.

more on it on the next post.skylerrrr.
fugly pic of him .. HAHA

me and gill were decorating our notebooks,
and i saw this hugeass nose in a magazine,
so i tore it out and taped it on my nose.

gill, playing donkey konga 2 at my house.
hhaha

2007-08-05T14:39:00.000-07:00

leaving in FOURRR DAYS.

do i wanna leave?
god. no.
i've made it pretty obvious havnt i.

well, i've BEEN excited to go back to the states to
see my boyfriend and gill and skyler,
but now, im thinking twice about it.

me and jake are having like multiple off days in a row,
and its kind of pissing me off.

he keeps giving me a hard time about EVERYTHING.
and sometimes, i just wanna give it up.

but now, when im 4 days away from reuniting with him,
its not exactly the smartest thing to do.
and if i did,
skylers gonna be taken away from me,
then who will i have to rant to?

ook.
the stupid stuff aside.

i went skinny dipping with kristian yesterday at the harbor.
we walked forever trying to find a dock that didnt have like
hugeass spot lights beaming onto it,
and that didnt have any people near it.

in the end we just went to the nearest one,
even though there was like a family standing there.

and we were like 1.2.3,
and we stripped naked.
lol.

it was FREEZING.
i wasnt even gonna get into the water but he pushed me in.

omg. my boobs were numb.
they were like icecubes.

as soon as we jumped into the ocean,
we climbed back up and ran to get our towels.

it was sooo freaking cold.
& i flashed like 9348239482309482 people.

lol. and i showed him my boobs.
dsiofunsdoifunsoidnfsodinfsodifmsdf
kinda fun i guess?

but i didnt dare to look at anything.
dookys(u know what i mean) freak me out.
hahhaa.

and we ALMOST kissed .. again.

this is complicated.

i wanna kiss him but i dont.

u know what i mean?

probably not cause im not making any sense ..

alright.
im gonna go take a shower,
and plans for tomorrow, are -

shopping with maine,
and then stippes with kristian?

ook. thanks bye

2007-08-04T10:28:00.000-07:00

IM GOING BACK TO THE STATES IN FOUR DAYS.

fuckkkk.
i dont wanna go home!!!
skinny dipping tonight (:

god.
FAGSBORO is gonna be soo boringgggg

2007-07-31T12:42:00.000-07:00

IM IN GERMANY RIGHT NOWWWW

and the keyboards suck monkey balls,
so ill post when i get back to sweden.

ooh. PS. swedish guys are wayyy hotter than german boys (:
äöüöäöüüüäöäöüöäöüöäöüöäöäöüöäö
yupp, good old ANNOYING european keyboards.

2007-07-29T14:06:00.000-07:00

hi, im bored.

IM LEAVING FOR GERMANY TOMORROW (:

we're going to berlin,
and the biggest mall in europe,
and hopefully a ton of other shopping places (:

NOOO MUSEAMS,
pretty please (:

im soo sick of museams.

anyways, me kristian and my family went to watch
this breakdancing competition between like 6 european countries.

sweden was theee best,
but we didnt get to stay for the whole thing because we had to go to
stupid church .. which was GAY.

i dragged kristian along, and we were just whsipering the entire
fucking 90 minutes of mass.
and we did the wave when we had to hold hands and sing our father.

we're gonna go skinny dipping next saturday,
so that will be pretty fun ..and gross.
i guess. haha

ok. i lied.
going back to the states in 12 days.

i kinda want to,
kinda dont,
so i guess its bittersweet.

pictures will be up next week .. hopefully.
if not it will be(definately) up when i get back to NC
peace (:

2007-07-28T15:50:00.000-07:00

im leaving sweden in 11 days.
FUCKKKK.

just got back from a 6 hour dinner at krisitians house.
& my moms being a bitch.
and i dont wanna go back to SHITSBORO.

obviously, im in a whiny mood.

2007-07-19T13:15:00.000-07:00

new pics on my myspace -

myspace.com/genduuuhhh

yeah. and jake's finally over the kristian thing (:
but im in europe. im supposed to have fun.
RIGHT?

2007-07-16T12:39:00.001-07:00

I LIED.
i didn't post yesterday ..

anyways, my sister's gonna be back from london tomorrow,
so im not gonna be able to blog much.
but i'll make this a really GOOD post complete with tons of pictures and everything,
since im not gonna be able to post much (:

starting off with saturday ..

WELCOME TO BONBON LAND (:

yup. so thats kristian on the far left, my brother, meghan (kristian's little sister),
yeah. and you who the last one is.
if you don't, you should.

we went to jump on the little kiddy moon bounce things. the sign said 7 and under, but me and kristian were like: fuck THAT! and we just climbed on and started jumping (:

mom packed sandwhiches and we picniced by the little kiddy go kart race track,
and after lunch, all of us like ran and had a race.

obviously, i won the race (:

we were walking, and kristian took my camera and was like. hold up. and then he ran ahead and told me to pose .. so i did, and this is how to picture turned out. WHAT A FAGGOT.
little kiddy merry-go-round. we're such LOSERSSSSSSSSS

the non-kiddy rides were pretty cool though,
like this one .

and the icecream was superly good (:
the famous danish soft-ice .

yummy! best icecream i've EVER had (:

joel and kristian get along superly well. kinda gay almost ..

waiting in line for rides.
ahhh! i wish they had fast passes like in disney ..

fort bilson .. its a big playground, actually.
and us showing off our superly awesome biceps (:
climbing the thing.
he took like 2198372894723849274982 pictures of me climbing this stupid thing.

the oh-so-famous,
stick-out-your-tongue face (:

i was like falling off the thing,
and he just stood there taking pictures of me falling -.-
spiderman?

trying to get through the little baby hole ..

andddd, im out (:
the obstacle course that i def beat kristian at (:
duck paddle boats.
its was pretty boring, because we tried to race, but kristian and joel kept
accusing us of cheating.

in fact, it got so boring,
we JUMPED DUCKS.

like we climbed out of our duck/boat thing,
and jumped into the duck beside it. LOL

we didnt fall in though (:

alright.. lets fast forward a couple of days to
TODAY (:

so, i got up at about 12, and kristian called.
asked if we wanna go get chinabox
(this superly good chinese food that comes in little takeout boxes that you can
walk and eat with)
for lunch.

he said to meet and the steps at 12.45,
but i didnt leave the house till 1.
lol

so, we got china box. ate for a couple of hours.
walked around, went to get icecream, and then they came over here.

i totally smoked him at wii tennis,
we went to the courtyard to sit and play blink and set,
totally whooped him in that too (:

and we tried to plan another crazy plan,
to sneak out tonight, but we're both too tired.
so the plans off.

i walked them home,
shopped a little.
joel got a skateboard !!!

i successfully converted him into a skater (:
ooh. yeah.
im THAT good (:

went for a run at like 10.30.
kristian wanted to go, but i said no.
ahhahaha.

yeah, thats pretty much it ..
alright. PICTURES (:

like i said, they get along so well to the point that its kinda
GAYYYY.
he used the spoon to cover his face ..
pretty smart (:

his aviators ..
looks kinda gay on him though.
haha
but joel looks superly cute in them though,
and you see all those gaps in between his teeth,
well, he just lost another tooth today.

he looks like some drunk rocker dude from england.
ahhaha.
don't you think ?

yummy icecreammmm
ahhh. im gonna get fat.
i eat icecream EVERYDAY, and today i had TWO icecreams.

it was supposed to look like a little model photo shoot.
turned out pretty bad though,
looked more like a .. i don't even know.

well, its like 2.29am right now,
and im super tired, but im staying up to blog,
so you guys better love me for that.

AND i have to get up at 8, because kristians coming to pick me up
at like 9 or 10 to go the skatepark.

oiejdcmkdclkmdpcosdkmckdspWTF.
8 in the freaking morning?

well, tmrs gonna be fun i guess.
we're going to the skatepark, and then chinabox again
(i'll try to get some pictures this time)
and then we're eating and walking to the theater,
and then going for another concert.

this time its a breakdancing one.
im pretty excited (:

well, i'll blog if i have the chance.
until then,
heido (bye in swedish .. yeah)

2007-07-14T16:28:00.000-07:00

just got back from kristain's house.
went to BONBON LAND just nowww.

ahh. im sooo tired and wayy to lazy to blog. i like can't even think anymore.
how bout tommorow?

i promise i'll blog tomorrow WITH pictures,
AND pictures of kristian (:

alright. be excitedddddd for that (:
good night lovers.

2007-07-13T14:47:00.000-07:00

you know what i just realised?
NO ONE UPDATES THEIR BLOG ANYMORE.
except meee of course (:

i faithfully and loyally update my blog EVERYDAY,
thank you very much.

yeah. but today was kinda awesome-ish.
its wasnt like the funnest day ever, but it wasnt totally boring like most days.

so, i got up at about 12.
yeah well, lets skip that part and go stright to dinner.

FAST FORWARDDD.
(ahh. soo corny.)

so, we walked on the middle eastern street (thats what me and my mom call it)
and stopped for kebabs.
god, i love those felafel things.
FAVORITEST FOOD IN THE WORLD (:

after that. we went home.
yeah .. fast forward on the boring part again.

so like at 7, we went downstairs to go look for kristain cause we were gonna go for a concert thing. he looked superly cute today (:
in a dressy kinda way.

lol. he wore an american eagle sweater and cudoroy kakhis.
but i wore soffees and a holister tee with an H&M sweatshirt.
soo, we kinda didnt match.
lol.

it was cute though.

the band was called the freedom fries.
its a jazz type band, but i really liked it.
the drummer was superly cute (:
and i like that kind of music so i guess it was kinda fun.

after the concert. kristian and like his wholeee family came over
and had coffee and desserts and cookies and stuff.

we played on the wii.
i totally kicked his ass (:
haha. i really did though.

and then we like sat on my bed and talked about the most randomest stuff.
and he likes cooking and baking (:
so im gonna go over to his house to bake cupcakes on sunday and then
go watch another concert .. i think.

but, tommorrow im going to
BONBON LAND!
ooh joy!

im gonna have the funnest day riding rides BY MYSELF again!
ooh boy! can't wait!

ahhh. i need someone to gooo with me!

oh, i went shopping yesterday.
spent like 1800 kronos, and me and jake were calculating how much money
i spent in US dollars, and it came up to $288.

and guess what i spent most of it on?
ACCESORIES.
oh god. like i didnt even remember buying all this stuff
until i got home and i was like looking at it. and im like omyfuckkk. im probably never gonna wear this or use this ever again in my life.

im such an impulse shopper, its not even funny. like im an UNBILIEVEABLY (or however you spell that stupid word) in credible impulse shopper. i buy everything and anything i find cute.
especially accesories. becuase they don't cost much, so i can keep spending and not feel like i spent alot of money. lol. u know what i mean?

anyways, other than buying A TON of accesories, i got 3 dresses and 2 belts (:
and 2 mascaras and 2 eyeliners.(i was running out. yupp. i had a reason to buy them)

ohh, jake got into my myspace and changed it. haha.
its pretty funny. heres the link:
myspace.com/genduuuhhh

2007-07-12T15:20:00.000-07:00

i just spent about an hour changing jake's myspace.
hahha. its super funny.
i changed his background to ALL pink,
and for his sexual orientation, i put gay.

lol. a bunch of stuff.
its soooo funny. and for his song,
i changed it to
big girls don't cry.

hahhaa. and he can't change it back cause he can't find his mouse (:
arn't i the best girlfriend everrrrrrrrr?

you can go view his profile at:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=167598855

its soooooooooo funny (: