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Thursday, August 24, 2006
5:03 PM


i feel like im gg fucking hav a heart attack or stroke or seizure or smth any minute. my head is like pounding like my brains gg jump out or my head is gg bao zha. its sooo super pain n my throat n ears are soo fucking pain. n I HAV SCH TMR!!

my daddy ask me to go eat medicine. den when i go dwnstairs. hav TWO super big pills istting on the table. they wan me to swallow pills. siao ar. the pills were like l l this big lor. rly rly. im NOT being kua zhang. in plastic n green color. den he keep forcing me n shouting at me. they alr knw tt i canot swallow pills they wan me to swallow tt big thing. TWO somemore !!

den i started crying den he ask me to chew it somemore. chew ?! siao ar ? den he keep forcing me den i started crying cos i rly rly canot swallow n im scared of swallowing also. den my mother keep laughing at me. den i was like laugh for wat? den she say laughing at this email. den i look at her laptop. shes looking at bedsheets still say wat email. n den my fucking brother keep making fun of me. like he can swallow pills liddat.

people scared of heights n spiders n things like tt. im scared of pills canot ar? ppl ask me to swallow pills only den i start crying alr.

den in the end my daddy cut the 2 pills n put in a LITTLE bit of sprite. n den when he was cutting he go n taste the gel stuff inside the pill n give me tt disgusting face. i cry even more !! den he still keep saying tt i waste alot. 2 pills like 1 pill liddat. stupid lar. canot swaloow means canot swallow. i dun care if i waste or nt lor. i die also wun swallow. even if i will try to swallow i also canot swallow. so wat they wan to do ?

den he still go n mix the thing n den when i drink i feel like throwing up !! the thing is like super bitter. canot even explain it. super super SUPER BITTER. n now is only 8.21 n they wan me to go n slp. i canot take it liao lar.

i HATE being sick !! cos i hav to TRY to swallow pills or drink those kids medicine tt taste super duper bad. or crush those pills tt can crush n put in water n drink. or chew the plastic type until the plastic break n swallow the gel stuff inside or cut it open n drink it in water. VERY DISGUSTING !!!

i better nt get cancer when i get older if not den i surely die cos i wun swallow any of the pills they give me. I WUN EVER SWALLOW PILLS !!

im gg go slp. my head is gg bao zha if i dun slp. pray tt i stay sick so tt i dun nd to go to sch. hlp me pray tt i dun hav to take medicine anymore. MEDICINES SUCK

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