Monday, March 31, 2008
7:52 PM
i am soo completely exhasted.
i don't even know why. i just got off spring break too!
anyways, the weather these couple of days has been sooo dreary, it makes me want to sleep even more. im seriously napping 6 times a day. its almost impossible for me to be up for 10 hours without napping.
ok. so i slept in biology, which everyone sleeps in.
i mean,its a given. who doesn't sleep in first period.
& then i fell asleep in french again.
& when i got home, i napped, hit the gym for a spinning class with my mom,
& came home & napped.
finished up some work & now im here typing this up before i take yet another nap.
i have to get up to finish up some work before i go to bed for the night.
i guess im growing!
speaking of growing ..
I GAINED 5 POUNDS OVER SPRING BREAK.
ohmygosh. freakthefuckout.
is it even possible to gain soo much fucking weight in sooo little time?
i didnt even eat that much. sure, more than i usually do, but definitely not enough to make me gain 5 pounds in a week.
i went from being 89 pounds to 95 pounds!
ohmygosh. ok. i just realised its 6 pounds!
i must've been in denial when i weighed myself and subtracted a pound from my weight gain.
but. wtf?
how did i gain 5 pounds in a week?
i've been putting in extra miles too!
i ran 2 days last week, & played soccer, cleaned my room, lots of cardio.
& this week, i've been running, and hitting the gym just about everyday.
oasdifhsldkjfsdoifusdlkfnsdf.
sooo frustrating!
i've even been doing extra crunches & pushups & upping my reps,
doing wall squats and shit.
is it possible its muscle weight?
ugh.
im gonna go sleep it off.
xoxo,
Rach
Rach
Sunday, March 30, 2008
12:28 PM
i havnt blogged in the longest timeeeeee.
i must be the worst blogger in the world, no?
anyways, some of you guys have been requesting new pictures,
& its about time for pictures too.
i definitely havn't posted pictures in the longest time.
so, here are the updates -
that was a couple months back:
haha. i was trying to find a picture that showed my hair best,so these 2 were the best ones out of my what, 329874234 pics?
& then, i was stupid enough to chop my bangs off.i look like im 12.
at least i got a good picture of my hair.
i took a picture to send it through a picture text so my sister could see what my hair looked like at that time.
so, its kinda blur.
& all these pics, were last friday morning,before school.
my hair was a tad wet, cause i was in the midst of getting ready for school.
so there you have it!an updated picture of me (:
omg. i absolutely CANNOT WAIT to go back to singapore.
if my parents are even gonna allow me to go ..
i don't even care if they make me fly like a stupid budget airline,
with 17 hour layovers (if thats even possible),
& totally not support my shopping expenses in singapore.
i'll do anything!
im that desperate.
i don't care how crappy & uber small the airline seats are.
i won't even care if theres on demand movies.
they can fly me on like freaking whatever airline, my international flight can be malaysia airlines for pete's sake.
omg. just let me goooooooo!
anyways, spring breaks over -
school starts tomorrow.
ugh. im REALLY dreading it.
i have soccer practice tomorrow though,
& im gonna ruun 2 miles before practice.
i've been whipping myself back into shape, & its going surprisingly good (:
i ran 2 miles on thursday, went to the gym for an hour, and then played soccer.
& on friday, i played soccer with my brother & then baseball.
im gonna try to do 6-8 miles a week!
im so excited!
me & my mom are training for a half marathon in like november or something.
but its like 13.5 miles.
a full marathons 27 miles, but we couldnt do that one because you have to be 18. i should do that when i turn 18 huh ?
but its gonna be soo awesome, because its gonna be in austin, and they're gonna have live bands and stuff playing throughout the whole 13.5 miles.
afterall, Austin, Texas is the live music capital of the world!
im superly excited to move there.
plus we're possibly getting a pool in the backyard.
just move me there rightttttt now
.
.
but take me to singapore first.
xoxo,
Rach
Rach
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
soccer season!
6:52 PM
yay. soccer season's here!
baseball season too!
im abosolutely thrilled. i missed my first 2 practices though.
i hope no ones playing my position. i'll be pissed if i have to play defense.
actually, baseball season isn't really here.
mlb only starts late summer/fall, but my brother's starting baseball.
damn it. now i need to get back to the gym to get back in shape.
i might possibly hopefully maybe be going back to singapore for the summer!
my mom said she wants to ship me off for the summer, so i don't mess up the house while its on the market.
YAY! im excited.
they better let me go, since they've gotten me all pumped and excited!
i can't wait to see mel.
& of course jas, joa, jess & eunice!
its been TWO FUCKING YEARS.
thats a longass time.
xoxo,
Rach
Rach
7:05 AM
EWWWW! I HATE SCARY OLD CREEPY GUYS!
i think they should die.
absolutely vanish from the surface of this earth.
why can't they just get a fucking life. i don't get why they DON'T have a life.
i mean come on. they're legal to drink, club, whatever you want, they're even legal to get a prostitude for pete's sake.
so what pleasure do they get in talking to young adolescent girls online?
Bob says:
hi
- RACHAEL; says:
hey
Bob says:
mi 29/m/sg
Bob says:
u?
- RACHAEL; says:
wayy too young for u
Bob says:
won't lar
Bob says:
i visit your blog mah
Bob says:
ok?
- RACHAEL; says:
yeah
- RACHAEL; says:
10 years younger in fact
Bob says:
ok
Bob says:
u from jc?
- RACHAEL; says:
so young that its almost illegal that you're even talking to me
- RACHAEL; says:
actually
- RACHAEL; says:
MORE than 10 years younger
- RACHAEL; says:
14 years younger maybe?
- RACHAEL; says:
you could be my dad
Bob says:
hmm...
Bob says:
be ur uncle lar
Bob says:
u want another dad meh?
- RACHAEL; says:
no
- RACHAEL; says:
i dont want to talk to creepy 29 year olds ?
Bob says:
y i'm creepy??
- RACHAEL; says:
cause you're 29 and you're talking to a 15 year old, & you have no life
- RACHAEL; says:
if i were 29, i wouldnt be talking to a 15 year old
- RACHAEL; says:
thats like me talking to a fetus
Bob says:
i like xiao mei mei
Bob says:
hehehe
Bob says:
(:
yeah. that last line:
Bob says:
i like xiao mei mei
Bob says:
hehehe
it just codes for insane pedophile!
he even added that lecherous "hehehehe"
to make it even scarier.
& of course, after he said that, he blocked me.
probably moved on to another innocent little girl.
his neighborhood should have a sex-offender watch on him!
Saturday, March 15, 2008
12:42 PM
just another opportunity to laze the day awayyyyyy.
hmm, i was supposed to go over to gill's house this weekend,
but she has to look after the baby!
its one of those annoying mechanical babies that totally scream and shout all day long - literally. so she told me to go over to help her out, but i didn't answer her calls or text her back. haha. thats how much i don't wanna deal with that devil-possesed robot baby.
anyways, me and my mom made granola today!
aha. it sounds so healthy, but its filled with calories.
better than dessert anyways & its pretty goddarn good.
hmm. i feel accomplished, cause i did my homework yesterday.
yes, on a friday night! AND, i changed my bedsheets today (:
now all i have to do is put my clothes away, give the unwanted ones to charity, take my pictures and posters and hot guys off the wall, neaten up my dresser a little, and my room is 100% sell-able!
my mom keeps complaining that our house isn't gonna sell cause my room is so messy and cluttered, and im gonna be the cause of it if no one wants to buy our house.
but i think its totally marketable.
im seriously considering doing an exchange program to singapore or france when i get to college. that would be hellafun.
especially if i went to singapore (:
my sisters going on an exchange program to egypt and ghanna this summer!
her life is soo fucking exciting, im kinda jealous.
she just went backpacking in england for a month, last summer (besides spending the remainder of the summer in sweden).
& i'll most likely be stuck here in shitsboro all summer.
i'll probably be going to isreal, but other than that .. shitsboro.
sometimes i wonder what my life would be like right now,
if i stayed back in singapore.
i bet it would be kickass awesome!
xoxo,
Rach
Rach
Friday, March 14, 2008
10:22 PM
i havn't blogged all week.
nothing exciting happened over the week, so i don't really have much to blog about. besides the fact that today was delayed start plus early release plus viking connections, so we had 18-minute classes, and viking connections for 90 minutes, and then we were out at 1.36 - which was superly awesome.
i saw horton hears a who today!
the new dr. suess movie?
it was awesomeeeeeee. i freaking love dr suess. the other dr suess movie that i absolutely LOVE is the lorax. its really good, you seriously have to watch it - afterall, it is dr. suess month.
i used to watch it alll the time when i was little. i can still remember the lines to some parts of the movie.
anyways, i drove again this week.
only that this time, i made a little tiny mistake.
we were driving out of my school parking lot, and it slopes downward. so after i backed out of the lot, i forgot to put the car into drive, and i stepped on the gas when it was still in reverse.
ohmygosh. we went downhill sooo fast, i panicked and screamed my head off.
my mom had to reach over and steer for me and pull the handbreaks.
after that episode, i got all jittery and i couldnt park the car straight, so i had to keep backing out and trying to straighten the car over and over again until i got it right.
but other than that, i think im a pretty good driver (:
i've been seeing that kid that i hooked up with on twirp night alot around school lately.
its kinda awkward. we just pretend that we don't see each other.
i've been trying to avoid him, but we always meet cause he walks by my locker everyday,
so whenever he walks by, i just stare into my mirror, pretending im fixing my hair. &
we're in the same lunch, and his class is like 3 rooms down the hallway from my class, so we walk the same way everyday.
i don't know if i should continue talking or texting him ..
its not kinda awkward. its really awkward actually.
i vow never to have a random hookup with anyone that goes to my school.
more importantly, i'll check what grade hes in and if he has any sisters my age, let alone in my english class. that just ruins the whole thing. i wish his sister would die. not die, but hmm. maybe be like a year younger than me or something?
no, that would still make it awkward.
i wish she were like 8 or 5.
anyways, im just rambling, and you guys have absolutely no idea what im talking about.
but jasmine knows (:
i'll tell you guys the story if you wanna know.
if not, i won't bore you guys. actually, its not that boring. haha.
moving on -
bryan's blog just devastates my little heart.
hes always hung up over some girl.
its kinda cute actually, to know that a guy could display such an immense amount of feelings for a girl, getting all sulky and swooning over her.
its usually the other way around.
i can't remember the last time i was totally head over heels, that i wrote sweet poems on my blog or actually thought about a guy all day.
i just don't get attached really easy.
sometimes i wish i could just channel all my feelings to a specific guy, but then when i have a boyfriend,i don't exactly want him. or rather, i just don't exactly want to be around him, or to have him with me all the time.
you know what i mean?
its the theory of 'wanting what you can't get',
and the theory of 'not knowing what you have until you lose it' all tied in together.
me and jake for example -
i dated him for 9 months, and i thought it was love.
but after we broke up, i wasn't really affected by it.
so that 9 months feels like a complete waste of time.
i can't see myself really hung up over a guy.
maybe in the future .. but right now, i just see it as a little teenage fling, and i can always get a new boyfriend. its not like we're gonna get married anyways.
but i don't know.
sometimes i kinda wish that i had someone to worry,
and to go out of their way to care for me -
make sure i don't ride in certain people's cars cause they're bad drivers.
watch me at parties to make sure i don't drink too much.
call to check in on me and find out what im doing.
or to yell at me when i don't do the most mature of things.
but then again, it was kind of annoying when jake actually did all those things.
i thought he was mom-ish.
i don't know. maybe i just have a screwed up heart to not be able to stay devoted to that one guy. or i just get too bored too easily.
i don't know how long relationships work though.
they don't make sense to me. i would rather have fun and be able to flirt with guys whenever i want to.
maybe what i need is a boyfriend thats really lax and lets me flirt with whoever i want.
then i'll get the best of both worlds (:
but i guess being with someone is like cutting your heart open and displaying it in a glass case for the world to see.
it can get infected that much easier.
& in order to not get your heart broken by someone else, you've just gotta be a little selfish sometimes, and fend for yourself instead of the other person.
because if you give entirely, you lose that special someone along with everything you had.
and that makes it that much harder.
i guess im selfish, and i fend too much for myself.
thats why i suck at relationships.
xoxo,
Rach
Rach
Saturday, March 08, 2008
8:40 PM
helloooooo my sweet love.
yes, i know i said i'd blog more .. but i've been kinda busy with drivers ed and all that shit. its been pretty overwheming.
I'VE ACTUALLY BEEN GOING FOR DRIVER'S ED!
i signed up like 4 times, and i keep forgetting to go. its every single day after school from 3.45 to 6.30. yes, we sit in the cafeteria for 3 hours leaning 'defensive driving'.
& the sad thing is, most of the people in driver's ed are FRESHMEN!
omfg. stupid froshes. they're soooo fucking annoying. i swear, they think they own the world. all the boys everrrrrr talk about is fucking people.
oh yeah! i totally believe that.
NOT!
they think they're soooo cool talking about sex 24/7, or at least everyday for the 3 hours that we're in driver's ed. but you know what? everyone can see through their tiny little class of '11 brains, knowing they've probably never seen past a girl in a bathing suit, let alone getting head.
they just need to shut up.
at least there are older people in driver's ed that i can actually have a decent conversation with. THANK GOD.
anyways, i've been going to that every single day, not even missing a minute!
actually i did skip the class on friday, but it was well worth it.
god, i hope they don't kick me out.
but anyways, on friday, me, ashton, mike varsey, and seth went to see the
seether, breaking benjamin & three days grace concert!
oh yes, i was about 2 feet away from him, and i was that close to touching aaron fink!
ohmygod. freakout right?
ashton even caught the guitar pick that three days grace threw into the crowd.
the vibe of the whole place was greattttttttt.
it was a full-on rock concert. headbanging and all.
camera's wern't allowed, but i got a ton of pictures and a couple videos on my phone.
i'll upload 'em asap.
or as soon as i get my ass off the couch to actually walk upstairs to plug them into the computer.
i've been totally slacking these couple of days. i havn't done any homework in foreverrrr. i can't even remember the last time i actually turned in my homework.
i've made a pact with myself to start reading for AP world history, countless of times.
but have i actually read?
nooo.
i have like 2 chapters due tomorrow, along with stupid ICE id's.
do you guys do that in singapore?
In depth
Cause
& Effect?
i don't think so, because its totally pointless, and really hard to cheat on.
you actually have to read the text to write that stuff down.
you know what?
maybe i'll stay up tonight to read and actually do my id's.
i can sleep in class tomorrow anyways, and i'll have a total sense of accomplishment (:
maybe i'll even do my vocab notecards for english!
i actually kind of feel like doing my work now.
anyways, with all that excitement aside,
i drove today!
yes, a working automoblie, with gas pedals and breaks with an actual steering wheel, windows, buttons that move the windows up and down, a working ENGINE, the works.
can you believe it?
I ACTUALLY PARKED THE CAR!
it was totally straight and within the lines of the lot!
i even straight line backed!
yeah, i know, this might not be that big of news for some of you guys, but this is the first time i actually drove a car.
i mean, i bet you were over the freaking moon when you first drove.
just a couple of weeks more till i get my driving permit! i can't fucking wait. i just need to make sure i pass the rest of my tests in drivers ed, and pass the final one at the DMV.
by the way, i already passed my first test.
got a B! a high B, in fact, with a score of 88!
oook. i want my license nowwww.
i want a car even more.
actually, i want a truck.
a big, black, chevy silverado, with monster wheels, and the whole thing raised like 5 feet.
that would be awesomeeee.
maybe i'll ask santa for my silverado for christmas (:
