its been like FREEZING outside these few days. this year the weather got cold really.
and it was raining soo hard ystrday, it started hailing!i hate it when it hails. its sooo noisy and scary also. and cold!

i took a picture of the hail. but it looks like snow
my stupid coputer wont let me flip it.

today i bought alot of makeup! im using mel's strategy. buying makeup helps me release stress. so now i have like almost the whole set of MAX FACTOR eyeshadows and eyeliner. i want the whole set! i just buy it. nt caring if i like the colors or not and if i'll use it or not. HAHA

i spent like $50 on those eyeshadows and eyeliners. and i got a new lipgloss and pressed powder too. i dont really like lipgloss anymore. i have so many alr. so i dont need to waste my money on that.

my new passion - max factor eyeshawos and eyeliners!

i didnt take a pic of the eyeliners, but i got 3. silver, like dark blue and gold.

i like the green purple and blue one. ur supposed to use all the colors and one time and its soo pretty. im gonna like have diff eyeshadow colors to sch everyday.

me n zhiwei stead for 2 mths alr =) i thin kour 2 mth date was on thursday? or wednesday. not sure. but its been pretty long alr & i miss him!

these few days im like a sorry machine. i keep telling everybody sorry.

1. on wednesday, i wore this really short pink skirt to sch. and everybody like hated me for wearing it. i went to sch in the morning and gill was like ' i cant believe ur wearing a skirt!' and the bailey was like ' u look like a hootchie mama' LOLS ( hootchie means slut/whore) haha. n then kimberly totally pissed me off and she like kept pulling my skirt. so then i got fucking angry and started yelling at her. so after that molly said that i was really mean. then i told kimberly sorry. ( they like forced me)
2. today my mom asked me to put the enchiladas in the oven to bake. so i put it in, and didnt read the instructions. then when she came home, she was like' rachael! what happened to the enchiladas?' they didnt taste/ look/ smell like enchiladas at all! then i had to start saying sorry again
3. then today my dad asked me if i have a long ruler. then i was like yeah. so i threw it downstairs and it scratched his eye. and then i was like 'sorrysorrysorry'

this week has been pretty stressful, but the makeup helped it all =)

and i have a soccer match tmr. i think against the comets. the team i used to play for. wE NEED to win! HAHA

after soccer, im gonna meet gill and thn we're shes going with me to church to do community service for confirmation. i need to quickly get confirmed so i dont have to do community service! but sometimes its quite fun

the community service thing i have to do tmr is running this face painting booth so i think it will be quite fun =)

today i went running with brittney. i think we're gonna run tmr too! im like addicted to running nowadays. its sooo fun ! and it burns calories too.

jas keep asking me to go finish that 'surprise' i was gg do for them, but im too lazy! HAHA.

im gonna go slp. soccer game tmr at 9.30 must wake up early. im gonna be freezing during the soccer game tmr! maybe my shin guards and socks will keep me warm.

today i didnt do anything. called zhiwei this morning and told him that i love him =)

today in school we had a lock down. its sooo stupid. i dont think u guys have lock downs in sg right?

its like when an ' intruder' comes into our school with like guns and everything or they want to bomb the place or smth. then we have to go n close the blinds and lock the doors and everything and then hide under the tables so the intuder person canot see us

then in 6th period, somebody went to pull the fire alarm. so the whole school had to go outside and the firemen came. LOLS. so stupid. but at least we wasted time. =)

i miss zhiwei




today was FUN!

we went for this scavanger hunt thing and it was sooo fun! like everybody gets into the car n then u have to drive around the whole greensboro looking for things and doing the things on the sheet. everybody thought we were crazy cause we were like running arnd walmart looking for things and taking pictures and then running into the dressing room n come out n take pictures and then run back in

n the person driving was speeding like siao. we thought we were gg to get into a car crash n die.

oh yeah. i saw this guy who was hit by a car today. we were driving on the highway n we saw this guy lying on the floor nt moving.

he was hit by a car but duno if he died or gt uunconcious or smth

im obsessed with those babby bottle pop thingys. they're soooo good !

im like addicted to these things!

i dont understand what is sooo bad about being anorexic. not like i am or anything, but i kinda sorta knw how anorexic ppl feel.

i mean hw often do u hear tt somebody died of anorexia? like NEVER! so why do all these ppl keep telling anorexic ppl to stop being anorexic.

are they jealous or what? im mean its rly nth. u just lose weight and look good. so its a good thing right?

thats just what i think. i mean im nt anorexic or anything. but i rlyrlyRLY hate those ppl who tell anorexics to stop being anorexic. its rly none or their business.

i feel rlyrlyrlyRLY guilty today! zhiwei, sry for nt calling u . SRYSRYSRYSRYSRY

sometimes i just wish ur nt soo good to me so tt i dont feel so guilty. I LOVE ZHIWEI! he didnt slp on friday cos he was waiting for my call. and i didnt call him! n then when i say sry, he say nvm n say i love u.

i have like the best stead tt anybody can find. mel, jealous right? HAHA

its friday! tmr have another soccer game. i think its against united. nt sure. or maybe lightings. but we alr played tt team like 3 times. and we won ALL 3 TIMES =)

im tired n i have like nth to do. this weekend must call mel n zhiwei. have alotalotalotalotALOT of things to talk to mel about. JWEE, n all tt stuff

today i had to go see the doctor .. AGAIN. to certify me HEALTHY to do sports. i grew taller! im 5 foot 2 inches! but the doctor told my mom tt im underweight so shes like stuffing food dwn my throat =\

im gg watch liu xing hua yuan for like the 5927463th time.

i think im gg go out to eat dinner with gill n then go watch a movie or smth tmr. or i might go to icehouse or smth. nt sure.

talking to eunice nw. we're like fucking lame. LOLS


- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
hey
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
hey
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
im bored
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
me too.
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
im gg go slp on the couch
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
nth to do
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
..
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
when u coming back
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
duno
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
2 yrs ..
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
maybe
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
why ?
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
miss me ?
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
yes !
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
aww.
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
i knew u would miss me
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
lols ?
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
are u lonely
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
i m too
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
i cannot go out
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
nah
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
cause i scored a 30 marks for me geography
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
im too busy to be lonely.
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
lols
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
ur so stupid.
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
yaya !!
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
HAHA
- RACHAEL . . dont make empty promises. just tell me, tell me everything. i'll understand says:
stupid girl !
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
OMG
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
u'r none other better
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
lols .
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
im smarter than u!
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
whatever
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
T_T
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
im soo bored
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
so are u still kou chi ?
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
HAHA
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
NO !
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
2 yrs u come back i SHOw u how i talking now
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
maybe 2 yrs later im still with braces
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
going to the detal this monday
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
*dental
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
OMG!
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
braces are even worse! they make u even more kouchi!
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
oh shut up
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
i have to put
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
u ahve braces nw ?
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
*have
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
u like my blog song
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
ya.
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
i kinda love it .~
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
u like mine ?
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
cassie me & u?
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
the buttons
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
NICE RIGHT?
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
yes ..
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
haha
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
any nice games for me
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
the cake game?
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
anything
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
T_T
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
haha
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
i feel sooo stupid playing the cake game.
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
fine
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
frustrating sia
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
others
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
HAHA
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
u lost right!
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
YA
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
always
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
HAHA
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
i told u ur stupid
- EUNICE. oMG i hate her life . x33 PISSED, says:
zzz
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
k lah
- RACHAEL . . just empty out my mind. its the way u love me that makes me feel so special says:
dont make fun of u alr


we nd to win the soccer game tmr. GO ROYALS ! navy blue n black =)

I LOVE ZHIWEI



HELLO! ugh. its 5.24. i havnt done anything since i came back frm sch. just sit in front of the computer n check everything i have to check. LOL

actually i rly didnt do anything today. i slept in like EVERY class. n i was like in nooo mood to do anything. i didnt even talk alot. i just talk like normal ppl.

u shd knw what i mean. cos i talk alot. more than normal ppl do. HAHA.

theres this guy in my class, hes name is josh. i think. nt sure. but he just moved here frm england. n he has a BRITISH ACCENT! ITS SOOO CUTE. so me n gill keep talking to him n gill keeps argueing with me about england n britian. its the same thing!

i didnt sleep in math. i slept in french. n then woke up to eat cupcakes. didnt slp in gym. slept in civics. slept in english n slept a little bit in science. =)

scott n lauren keep making fun of me cos they say tt im like a little kid always have to take naps. cos last time in middle sch everytime they look at me im always slping. nw also.

in english we had to do this reflection thing. they turn off the lights n play music. n then u have to close ur eyes n they ask u questions n u have to think about it.

what would u save if there was a fire in ur hse n u could only save one thing.

if u could only save one person. who would u save? ur bf/gf, ur bestfriend, or u brother/sister?

if BOTH ur parents had a heart attack and they needed ur heart for a heart transplant will u do it? and if u will which one will u give it to?

would u rather be ugly but fat and diabetic, or pretty but deaf n dumb?

write down a list of things tt u like about ur life, and a list of things tt u dont like about ur life. which list in longer?

blahblahblah. n then i fell aslp. HAHA. so i didnt answer anything. LOLS

im soooo tired! i always feel like i have no energy by thursday. lucky every friday we have early release. if nt i'll probably faint.

i have the best stead ever and the best sisters u can find. its hard to these ppl somemore. lols. i wrote tt for the things i like about my life. =)

TMR'S FRIDAY! YAY! i can finally rest sia =)




HELLO. i just gt back frm emily's hse. i was supposed to go thr to do a 'project' but her dad ended up doing the whole thing for us.

we din do anything just talk bout guys n try on clothes n talk bout homecoming n stuff like tt. HAHA

today im in like a VERY good mood =) ever since zhiwei called me im like sooo fcuking happy n everything today went almost perfect.

i slpt in french class, AGAIN. late for english class, AGAIN.

but when i ran to class, my teacher was waiting outside for me n she was like. thank u for running. im like yeah, sure =)

i had a math quiz today. i think i did pretty good on it. i dont have any tests or anything tmr. but i have soccer practice tmr =) hope it doesnt rain

i havnt ran in TWO DAYS! on thursday i need to run extra. i havnt ran since sunday. i cant wait till the weekend cos i need to call mel n zhiwei.

& i need to talk to joanne bout some stuff too. n i'll probably go shopping for my homecoming dress this weekend too.

tmr is ERD! EARLY RELEASE DAY! we get out of sch at 1.38pm. so i get to miss 5th n 6th period, english n physical science. the BORINGEST classes of the whole day.

i dont knw what i shd wear to sch tmr -

shorts, a cami n a mini hoodie ..

OR shorts and a holister baby tee

IM TIRED ! nights =)

I LOVE ZHIWEI .. MIGHTY 6 =)

i was like sooo busy this weekend.
friday night, i went for my brother's soccer game. i cheer for him sooo loud! LOLS. n then went for dinner. went home i went online for awhile but nobody was online. den watched liu xing hua yuan until like 3am.

then saturday morning. woke up at 8. my soccer match started at 9.30. we WON! 7-3 =)
my running paid off sia. i run like at least 8 laps everyday. so during my soccer game i wasnt tired AT ALL.

i played forward (offense) the WHOLE match somemore =)
i scored a goal, i pushed alot of ppl out of my way, i knocked some ppl dwn. and somebody knocked me dwn. but tts the whole point of soccer right?

when the person knocked me dwn it hurt rly bad too. she like pushed me dwn soo hard, i hit the ground n rolled ovr. PAIN! i hurt my knee also. but then after tt we gt a free kick. so it was ok.


after tt i took like 1 hr to change n put on makeup n everything n then we drove to raleigh to visit my sister. we bought a new dvd payer for the car so me n my brother watched 'bring it on again' in the car. its like a cheerleading movie. NICE =)

i took like 2 hrs to get there. n then we went to NC state to pick my sister up. went to eat at cheesecake factory. i had spicy chipotle chicken pasta =) haha. I LOVE PASTA. n then we ate like 2 desserts some big chocolate cake thingy n some raspberry lemon tart thingy.

then we went shopping at the mall. thrs this new store. GADZOOKS. its forever 21 and gadzooks put together. the clothes there are SOOOOO nice! but the sizes are sooo big. i cant fit into ANY OF THEM!

the we went to macys to look for dresses, american eagle, gap, charlotte russe. and like a whole bunch of stores to look for my HOMECOMING DRESS. wet seal was ok. they had quite a few dresses. but i cant fit into them

then we went into this store, i forgt wats the name. but its for like teens n ppl my size. they had ALOT of dresses thr. and some of them actually FIT ME. so i tried on like at least 10. but for everything. its either my neh is too small, my butt is too small, or im just too small to fit.

and i saw one dress tt i REALLY liked. its a blue halter dress, like a silky fabric with glitter on it. its has like light blue and a darker blue coming dwn frm the top like side ways. OMG!! sooo nice! but the dress was too big! and it was a small also.

n then my mom picked out another dress. its blue also with like shiny material but my neh was too small so they had to stuff things inside. i could fit into it but i din rly like it.

there was another black one also. with like diamonds in the front. but it was spagetti strap and a little big. so i din get it. i need to find PERFECT DRESS tt i can wear for homecoming.

but the dance is nxt mth so i have plenty of time to look for it. i might go to concord mills with emily or someone to look for my dress.

after shopping we went to grand asia. its an asian supermarket n i gt BUBBLE TEA!! i miss bubble tea sia. but there bubble tea is like fake bubble tea. doesnt taste like singapore bubble tea.

went to my cousin's hse. me and sarah talked for like quite a long itme until like 10+

then we went to my sister's college to hlp her fix her tv. she was getting ready to go for a party. its like a frat party and the theme was white trash. so ur supposed to dress like sluts

i helped her cut up her shirt. then she cut a rly rly rlyrlyrly low slit. n u can like see her bra. then she used safety pins to pin it up LOLS.

about 11+ we started driving home. we watched this volleyball movie in the car but i fell aslp like halfway through

sunday, i stayed at home n slept n i ran 12 laps. =)

MONDAY, today!
i woke up late cos i din feel like waking up today. then i finally woke up, went to get ready, everything. my mom drove me n derek to sch. blahblah. the usual stuff

went to my locker. every morning when i go to sch its like walking dwn a runway or smth. cos u have to walk dwn this longlonglong hallway n everybodys sitting and looking at u. n my locker is all the way at the end of the hallway.

then gt all my books n everything. went dwnstairs. saw madison. she punched me, i kicked her. LOLS

then talked to brittney until the bell rang. went through the normal stuff. 2nd period i had french. my french teacher fell n cracked her ribs so she wont be in sch for like 1 week.

we had this substitute tt likes to talk sooo super much. he like keeps talking n talking n talking non stop. n he talked bout like boring stuff.

he said tt he went to virginia to hunt n texas n blahblahblah n he caught duno hw many hundred thousand rattlesnakes. he gt bitten by duno hw many million gazillion snakes n monkeys n duno what.

n he found a white snake n he could sell it for tens of thousands of hundreds of millions of dollars but he donated it to the zoo.

n then wright asked him hw many times he was bitten. then he said 'wow. lots of times. i a probably the first man in the world to live through all these snake bites.' n then i was like. ' u shd go for the guiness world or records show.' n then me megan n ashton n dylan started laughing

then he said tmr hes gg switch our places. LOL. he talk more than us lor

then 3rd period i had gym. we played flag football today. its like american football. nt soccer. its the boringest game in the world. but its better than volleyball. so u have to like tackle ppl and knock them dwn. n u have to pass the ball to a girl at least 2 times every dwn.

so the boys told me to go tackle this other guy. n then i was like huh?! the guy was like 5 times bigger than me. so i went to try to knock him dwn n i pulled his flag out. so its the same thing as tackling him lah,

quite hard to explain lah. budden after tt the boys on my team ask me to go n run the ball. so i took the football n tried to run to the touchdwn line. then i was running running. then suddenly all the boys were like. lets go rush her. i was like whats rush?

n then all the guys in my class started running after me to try to pull my flag! i was fucking scared sia. so i ran as fast as i can. then this bigbigbigBIG guy ran up to me to try to pull my flag. n my flag was at my shorts there.

i was running n he was trying to pull. i was sooo scared he was gg pull my shorts dwn. then i started screamng n just threw the ball. then i quickly run away. HAHA

then went to 4th period. economics. its like all the business stuff. its sooo stupid. nt like we're ever gg use business stuff ever. budden we had this huge test today n i didnt study.

so wen she gave out the test i din even understand anything. n during the test i suddenly gt very tired so i just quickly anyhw do then i went to slp. i slept for like 45 mins. then class end.

i hate 5th period the most cos i have to run thr. today i was quite early cos i ran to my locker. n then quickly dump all y books inside n took my other bag n ran. so i gt to class like .25 seconds before the bell rung.

then me, natalie dylan n o brian were talking n then they were like. ' go ask ms humbard if u can have like half a minute ore to get to class cos ur like always running.'

then my teaher walked here. then i was like ' can i come to class like 5 seconds late cos i have to run to class everyday.'

then she was like ' no ms siew. i knw u have to run to class but ur doing a good job'

WTF! she knows im running to class but im still late n she dun even give me 5 seconds more. STUPID TEACHER.

then in 6th period. physical science. we did NOTHING cos i was too tired to do anything. i took some notes n then copied emily's notes. n then me emily jake molly n another jake started talking bout ahmish ppl.

its some kinda religion where u canot drive cars, canot use modern technology, canot use electricity. n stuff like tt

then i was like. oh yeah! i saw a ahmish family in disney world. then they were like disney world? im like yeah! then they dun believe me. cos ahmish ppl canot use electricity so they go to disney world for wat.

LOLS. but i remb last yr when we went for our end of yr 8th grade trip i was at disney with scotty n colton n ashly n them n we saw like this BIG ahmish family.

but whatever lah. tmr im gg to emily's hse after sch.

ZHIWEI CALLED ME TODAY! haha SOOO HAPPY SIA. budden we talk for like 2 mins then y daddy went to pick up the phone. so i said i will call him back on friday. I LOVE ZHIWEI =)

k. i nd to go train for cross country alr. oh yeah. i have new pics too -

me n jill in sch. HAHA she has the small gym locker. LOLS

jill said i canot wear this shirt cos my bones stick out then very disgusting. LOLS

i obviously DONT match. but who cares lah. HAHA

my hair sticks straight out. veh ugly sia

IM SICK AND TIRED OF MY FUCKING LIFE !!
why cant we fucking just stay in singapore? why do i have to fucking move here?
nobody in this hse is happy at all. and im sick and tired of putting up with my mother's fucking attitude. everytime shes nt in a good mood she come n scold me. n im sooo fucking stupid to stand there and let her scold.

she say she gave up sooo much to come here n look after us. she can just stay in singapore for all i care. she thinks i nd her to look after me? if i dont have her to come and keep forcing me to eat and do stuff i will be sooo much happier

she thinks tt i never give up anything to come here ar ? she thinks shes the hero and tt everyone shd appreciate her?!

im sick of her fucking bad temper. when i was living here with my daddy and NO her i was sooo much happier.

she say she gave up her working life, her independence her money everything to come here. GO BACK LAH. I DONT NEED U

u think i never give up my PERFECT life in singapore to come here n put up with ur fucking attitude? u think i have a bad attitude. u leh? u dare to tell me ur nt unreasonable ?

everytime i try to talk to her all she knws hw to talk about is hw messy my room is n my clothes n blah blah.

IF U DUN LIKE ME THEN SAY LAH! U DUNO HW TO JUST SEND ME BACK TO SINGAPORE HUH? THEN U CAN LIVE UR FUCKING PERFECT LIFE WITHOUT ME.

everything tt goes wrong in her life is always my fucking fault. when my brother comes n irritates me n i scold him its always my fault. when my sister comes n takes my things n i shout at her its always my fucking fault.

my life is sooo damn fucked up nw. i always have no energy in sch. im like failing every class. i cant even find zhiwei. cant even talk to him. i canot talk to my sister anymore.

I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE! I HATE MYSELF.

so u knw wat? im just gg mess my room up even more. im gg become super skinny. im gg nt eat. im gg do everything tt she tells me nt to do and im gg do whatever i want whenever i want.

she can fucking hate me more since she already hates me. i'll do whatever i can to go back to singapore.

I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE IN AMERICA! I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE! SHE DOESNT EVEN KNW HW MANY NIGHTS I CRY MYSELF TO SLP BECAUSE OF HER FUCKING ATTITUDE AND COS I MISS ZHIWEI N MY SISTERS. ALL SHE KNWS HW TO DO IS SAY IM USELESS AND PUT ME DWN. TT MAKES U HAPPY RIGHT? TO SEE UR FUCKING DAUGHTER SOOO FUCKED UP!!

when i say tt im gg train for cross countryu. she says im overdoing it. now i swear if i say i want something, im gg do whatever i can to get it

i wont even care about what u say now. when u ask me to eat i wont fucking eat. cos even if i eat to make u happy, the nxt thing u'll do is say im useless. im sick of fucking listening to u and making u happy and get nth in return except for u saying im useless.

u can say all u want BECAUSE I DONT FUCKING CARE!

zhiwei. im fucking fed up of thinking bout wat happened to u and whr u are n why u dont wanna contact me and everything. u alr promised me tt u will tell me if u dont like me anymore.

so dont make empty promises. just tell me cos its just not worth it to wait and getting this fucked up.

I RLY DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE! I JUST WANNA LIVE MY OWN LIFE WITHOUT ANYBODY FORCING ME TO DO ANYTHING !




i havnt update in a long time alr. actually nt tt long cos the post tt i typed on monday i went to save as draft. nt publish post =\

nth much happened this few days, only tt i started my cross country training. i ran 5 miles ystrday. which is 20 laps! 20 full laps! OMG. i dont even knw hw i did it.

but i din run the whole thing lah. i ran like the first 5 laps, jog 1 lap, run 2 laps, walk 1 lap, jog 1 lap, run 4 laps, jog 3 laps n then run another 4 laps =) OH YEAH !

ltr im gg run another 8 laps non stop. after i ran tt 20 laps, i lost 1 kg !! if i do tt everyday n lose 1 kg everyday den ill be 30kg in like a few days =)

im like obsessed wif peanut butter these few days. i keep eating peanut butter for breakfast lunch n dinner. i keep having cravings for peanut butter. also duno why.

this morning i had peanut butter and jelly on honey graham crackers. lunch i had peanut butter and strawberry jam sandwhich. i ask my mom if i can eat peanut butter for dinner but she said no. =\ LOLS

IM HUNGRY! im gg go eat n then go run =)

i still havnt found zhiwei yet! TAY ZHIWEI! WHR THE FUCK ARE U ? ur almost driving me crazy!

im gg eat alr. fish and chips. n im gg eat peanut butter for dessert =)




todyas 9/11. everybody who died in the crash 5 yrs ago, RIP



i was late for english class AGAIN. my teacher was like ' RACHAEL ! SEE ME AFTER CLASS!'. after class i went to see her n den she was like 'IF U ARE LATE AGAIN, IM GONNA HAVE TO SEND U TO SEE U GRADE PRINCIPAL!' i was like yeah ok. den i walked out of the class.

i alr thought of wat im gg tell my grade level principal alr. im gg tell him tt my locker is too far away n no matter how fast i run i just cant get to class in time because my locker n my class are sooooo far away.

den he will have to give me a new locker =) HAHA.

after english i went to physical science. n my stupid science teacher always does stupid things tt are like totally pointless n has nth to do wif science. we went out to the track to see hw fast we can walk 15 meters. LOLS!

2 ppl use a stop watch to time u n den u calculate the pseed u walk. me n emily started being stupid. we did CATWALKS. we will like shake shake shake our butt n den turn around, flick our hair, give tt kuku face, blow kiss, n den walk back.

we have to say the pledge of alleigence everyday. smth like the mari kitah tt u all have to sing

i pledge alleigence to the flag of the united states of america, and to the republic for which it stands, one nation, undergod, indivincible and liberty and justice for all









im bored! im very bored.
today my daddy woke me up at 8. cos i had a soccer game at 9. so my daddy came into my room n he was like
'rachael wake up!'
'5 mins more PLEASE!'
'OK'
like 0.2146872387535715 mins after tt he came into my room agn
'rachael wake up! 15 mins alr.'
' wat 15mins? 10 mins more'
den he went outside, close the door n come in agn.
' rachael! 9.20 alr.'
'HUH ?!' so i sat up n went into the bathroom. den i came out to look at the clock. 8.05 =.=

when i gt there, there were 5 ppl on our team. FIVE! hw to play wif 5 ppl?! den we walked around reqruiting ppl to play for our team n we gt 4 more players. in the end, the score was 3.3 tied.

today i was like SUPER lame. i din hav anything to do so i started naming ppls kids
mines gg be
LONDON TAY AH PEH N ENGLAND TAY AH SOR.
JESS KIDS ARE INDIA OOI DA XIANG N AFRICA OOI WU GUI.
JOANNES IS CHINA YEE TI TU N JAPAN YEE TU TI. LOLS.

den mel gt angry cos i keep irritaing her. im sooo tired ! my daddys leaving to go to kansas city tmr for business trip

whrs zhiwei ? i havnt talk ed to him in like 2 weeks n he doesnt even bother to contact me ! shd i just end it? cos i feel like im holding him back. but i cant bear to break! what shd i do sia?

i miss zhiwei ! and i miss POH JI TEH, CHANG JI BAI, CHIA JI GONG, LOH JI NIU/ OOI JI TEK, CHEN JI POK/ YEE JI TOCK. i really reall really rlyrlyrlyrlyrly miss zhiwei ! but i dont knw if he still loves me =(

i nd to stop thinking all these stupid things. but i nd to talk to him ! hais. plsplspls be online tmr. i need to talk to u!


i decided tt im gonna start training for cross country. starting tmr =)

ok. so ystrday i wrote until the part whr we messed up the hotel. tt was the day we were leaving to go to genting. then on the way to genting we stopped at this waterfall place n i had to go to the bathroom like SUPER SUPER DUPER bad. but its like those kampong place so i dun dare. lols. den we went to the waterfall n went to take pictures like in the water. not in the water lah. but there were like some rocks in the water n then u have to jump over. n i was soo scared i was gg fall into the water.

daniel keep trying to scare me n keep pushing me. after we took pics daniel, bryan n arron went to climb up the waterfall. n den me n sean went to climb also. WAH! VERY HIGH SIA! climb until my legs tired.

we went to the top of the waterfall, took pics, n den threw water bottles into the water n watch it go dwn the waterfall. theodoric was trying to be keh kiang. he went to climb up the waterfall also. n den when we went dwn, nt even halfway. he start panting alr. lol. KEH KIANG ! he needs to excersise more !

after tt we sat in the bus for like 9 hrs. n i kicked joel out of the back row so i could sit behind wif everybody. n den i slept like the whole way. we started telling ghost stories on the bus cos we watched 13 ghost on the bus n it was like super scary n i was hiding under my jacket. bryan n sean n arron kept laughing at me.. lols.

they told me like all the ghost stories bout genting. n den sean kept telling lame ghost stories. NOT SCARY AT ALL. daniel keep trying to make me scared. typical lah. boys are boys

whne we gt thr i was like 'EE ! y the hotel sooo many colors one?' then when we gt to the lobby i was like ' WAH! NICE SIA !' n we waited forever to get our room keys. n when i gt to the hotel room i was like ' EEEEEEEEEE SOOOO SMALL !' n the room was like all messy n sitnky n the beds were nt made.

then we went dwn to go n walk while we waited for the people to come n clean the room. i forgt whr we walked to alr. budden we walked for quite long. walk until i was like SUPER HUNGRY. n i was sick of eating rice cos we had to eat rice like everyday. budden i saw all of them walking intothe hainanese restaurant n all of us started complaining. but in the end i was sooo hungry, we just went in to eat.

the food took like super long to come n i had gastric pains. so i like bent over n hug my tummy. den they all started making fun of my bones cos my back bone n spine sticks out. then they kept comparing me n bryans backbone. see whos bones stick out more. lols. BRYAN WON! UR SOOO SKINNY! SKINNIER THEN ME.

we waited like 20 mins n the food havnt come yet then we saw a comment card on the table n started writing stupid stuff on there n scolding them. saying tt their service is bad, their waiter is a bapok n dun o wat lah. n den all o f a sudden bryan was like ' why girls handwriting so nice one ar? nt fair.' n den all of us started quarelling about girls n guys handwriting agn.

quarell until our food came. i ate like alot. i ate almost the whole plate of chicken rice. then dnaiel n arron ate the rest of mine. after tt we went to go bowling ! we had like stupid names. mine - bapok, bryan - gigolo, sean - hard gay, theodoric - see me pawn rachael. LOLS! arron - i forgt, daniel - forgt also. HAHA

i forgt who won. i think bryan or daniel but i sucked n theodoric lost! HAHAHAHHAHHHA. PAWN RACHAEL SOMEMORE LAH! after tt we went to go play pool. dnaiel vs arron. i was scorekeeper. arron won like 21 to 0 or smth. n den after tt bryan taught me hw to play.

n then we played n played n then went back to my room to play somemore. i helped bryan n daniel put on makeup. bryan looked like a bapok sia. n den daniel looked just like a GIRL. lols. n then they pretend to kiss n everything. LOLS.

then we wanted to go swimming cos we thought there was a swimming pool in the hotel. den i went to take my bikini. n den arron saw n ask sean to wear. HAHAHAHHA. very funny sia. he wear the bikini top only lah. n den can see all his fats. n he keep posing somemore. all of us laugh until like gg siao alr. HAHA.

we went to bryan's room to change n they keep disturbing me when i was changing. they keep knocking on the door, n then turn the lights on n off. STUPID BOYS.

after all of us changed we went dwnstairs to the lobby. EVERYBODY WAS STARING AT US. we went to ask the person whrs the swimming pool. then he sya our hotel dun hav swimming pool. TMD ! THE PICTUR STILL SHOW S WIMMING POOL !. emabrassing sia. budden all of us started laughing agn cos we were sooo stupid.

we went upstairs to change n then went to the indoor theme park to watch soccer. WORLD CUP! i wore my blue soccer shirt to support france. or watever team tt was blue.

we went dwnstairs n den thr was this haunted mansion thing. n then there was this person dressed like a pontiac. her whole face n body was white. lips red. eyes super black. hair very long n straight. SCARY! the boys dared me to go n touch the pontiac person cos they knw im scared of ghosts [ stupid boys] . so when the ghost was looking the other way. i went to tap her shoulders den i quickly walk away. den the chost turn around n looked at me. n then i was like ' EEEEEE!!' n den it started to chase me. i was like screamng n running in public n everybody was looking at me. n then all the boys were sooo happy laughing away.

then they keep trying to make me walk past the haunted house agn. then we went to see the ripleys believe it or not. n den the tallest man in the world was like some kinda plastic thing. n then sean keep scaring me n i keep screaming n screaming n running away. everybody though i was like crazy or smth.

after tt we saw somebody ask the ghost whr is the toilet. then the ghost told the person n all of us started laughing. they asked me to go n ask the ghost whr is th toilet also. but i din dare.

we finished watching soccer at times square n then we went back upstairs to go slp. i asked my daddy to come n slp in my room cos i was very scared. haha.

the nxt day was theme park day. we bought indoor n outdoor theme park tickets for 2 days. the first ride we rode when we gt there was tt swing thingy. we all hold hands n then when the ride started we push each other off. i remb bryan almost hit my head.

then we saw bapoks wearing all pink n making all these stupid actions. we started laughing VERY LOUD n then one of them stared at us. then after the ride finished we quickly run away. after tt we went for looge.

daniel din go for the ride. den sean said is because u must weigh urself for the ride then daniel scared hes overwieght. HAHA. budden daniel said tt hes nt feeling well.


i continue the thing agn tmr. cos im super tired! tmr have a soccer match a 9.30. hope we win =) first match of the season. GO ROYALS !!


I LOVE ZHIWEI



THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO BRYAN =)

i just drank yellowtail white wine. just a little bit only but i have like HEARTBURN. haha. i went dwnstairs n i saw my mommy n daddy sitting on the couch holding wine glasses. i thought it was water. n den my mom was like. im gg go slp alr. wine makes me slpy. den i was like ' U ALL DRINKING WINE ?!' den i saw my moms face was like super red n she canot walk straight. haha

TGIF ! my brain is like fried n my body has like no energy left. i fell aslp in french n den my teacher was like 'rachael, r u ok?' den dylan keep turning back n knocking my head n say rachael, r u ok? like super loud den the teacher keep looking at me.

n den i fell aslp agn in civics n arron keep kicking my chair cos i din pass the paper to him. n den i fell aslp AGAIN in english n natalie kept like throwing paper at me cos we were doing vocabulary n when she pass the paper behind i dun go n get it cos i was slping. lols.

so basically i din get to slp AT ALL in sch today. except in physical science. but i was like talking for most of the time. so it din rly matter.

ok the post tt i promised to dedicate to bryan -

when i first saw bryan on the bus, he was like rly shy n din talk to me. den i was like ' y bryan sooo shy? on msn he talk so much n den when he sees me hes so shy' haha. n den i went to move my luggage into the luggage compartment thingy. n den i saw joel sitting in the back seat. tt means no seat for me. so me n daniel had to sit by ourselves.

den we had to drive like 12 hrs or 16 hrs or smth to cameron islands. n of course, i slept like THE WHOLE WAY there. like duh. haha so when we got to cameron. i went to the boys room n we were like ahnging out thr n playing gin.

n den. i duno when we all started talking budden after awhile all of us were like talking like we're like best friends or smth n making fun of bryan n cheryl haha. n den we went to whr did we go? i think we went to the bee farm. n then we ran around the bee place trying to run away frm sherman cos he likes me n keep chasing me n following me everywhr. lols.

n we were trying to avoid theodoric also cos hes sooo irritating. so it was me, sean, bryan, daniel n arron. n den we walked somewhr with alot of bees n den daniel n bryan started freaking out cos the bees keep flying near them. n den bryan gt stung by the bee. HAHA

n den we went to the flower place n walk ed around also. n i kept plucking flowers n putting it into my hair. we saw the bapok mermaid n den sean started laughing like SUPER LOUD. louder then he needed to . haha. but once he starts laughing, everybody starts laughing. so then all of us ended up laughing like non stop.

bryan n sean found dead butterflies n put in my hair. very nice =) but it kept dropping so they went to find another one n put in my hair agn. haha

aftr tt we went to the strawberry place. we paid to go n pick strawberries. n den bryan sneaked in. haha. either bryan or sean or somebody sneaked in. when we were inside sherman we keep eating n eating strawberries n trying to hide frm the indian person cos ur nt supposed to eat the strawberries. must pay first den eat.

sherman kept following me like everywhr n like took a picture of me like every 2 seconds. all of us pick until so happy. when we went outside daniel n bryan found out tt u only can pick 1 tray of strawberries then they had to pay alot. so we took like alf of the strawberries n stuffed it into bryan n seans pocket. n den went on the bus n eat. there was like strawberry juice ALL OVER bryan n sean. in their pocket, on their handphone everywhr. haha

we went to buy strawberry sticks. sooo nce =) its strawberries dipped in honey. n den all of us share one stick. we were like fighting to eat the strawberries. lols. n den sherman went to buy n den he gave me. he was like ' im veh full alr. nah. give u' n den sean was like. full still buy for wat. n den daniel quickly go n eat mine. lols. n den we fight somemore over the strawberry stick.

we went onto thr bus n den went to eat all the strawberries we stole. sherman kept annoying me so daniel went to hlp me. n den sherman called him lameshit. LOLS. den daniel got super angry n they started quarelling

so the whole trip we keep running away frm sherman n scolding him until he dun liike me. haha

cameron highlands is sooo fucking pathetic. we were looking for the nicest cars in the whole city. the nicest was like this 60 yr old car. lols

we went to the cactus place. n theres like all these weird things. n we had to walk quite far. so we started playing agn n plucking flowers to put in my hair. theres like all these weird cactus wif boobs and smiley face. quite cute lah. but we got bored so all of us started eating bubblegum n blowing bubbles.

we tried to take a picture but we spent like 20 mins there trying to blow bubbles at the same time so we can take pic. but canot. n den i blow halfway den the bubblegum flew out of my mouth. dne i keep asking daniel to buy somemore for me.

then he say. go ask sherman lar. den bryan went to ask sherman but he dowan to buy for me. so in the end daneil bought for me =) haha.

n then sherman started following me agn. so we ran away. ran VERY FAR away somemore. n den they went to look for us. when they ran up the hill, we ran dwn. n den we went to hide in the bus.

after tt, went to buy daniel's champagne. lols. went back to the hotel, went to play pool, watch world cup. n den i told them im gg go take a shower. but i fell aslp. the nxt day they told me they wait for me for very long but i din go dwn to their room. lols

the nxt day, woke up early, went dwn to their room. n then we played dai dee. theodoric was gg climb onto the bed, den he fell off. sean started laughing SUPER LOUD agn so all of us started laughing. n den i laugh sooo much n canot stop laughing tt daniel went to kick me dwn the bed.

VERY PAIN SIA. i was gg pretend to cry. but even if i cry they wont care. haha

tt day we were leaving to go to genting. before we left we like messed up the whole apartment. HAHA. we went to turn the chair upside dwn. turn the sofa upside dwn. turn the tv upside dwn. take out all the pillows n blankets. mess up the whole place. n den i went to take all the blankets n hang outside on the balcony. i duno if it dropped or not. HAHA.

im gg go slp. i'll post the rest tmr. too tired alr. hav sch tmr. NIGHTS. slp while u still hav holiday if not u'll become like me LOVE U <33




i read wanting's blog n she was talking bout hips. cos she went back there during teacher's day. she said she doesnt mind study p6 agn. haha. me too! i remb those p6 days !

me jas n mel. haha. we like ruled the sch(sort of, holy ppl shd knw wat im talking about lar) haha. we keep 'di siao-ing' ppl n keep making them do stuff for us. n they do it !! haha

during recess we wun eat n go n run arnd n play n disturb ppl. haha. we say ' POM you mei you bei xia dao? ' n den we start laughing. haha. i also duno wats so funny about it but last time we think its very funny. lols.

n den we keep singing the tuo diao tuo diao song. HAHA. fun =)

jas n mel were in 6E. den me n xinde n junkai in 6C. in class is also super fun cos the 3 of us keep doing stupid things n nt listening to the teacher. the teacher say dont do, we do. she say do, we dont do.

we had like these stupid 'teams' in class. its like the teacher divide u into 4 rows n then u have to behave to get pebbles. the more pebbles u get the more prizes u get. haha. u think me xinde n junkai care ?! NO !!

haha. we keep causing the team to lose pebbles until they kick us out n move the 3 of us into one team. haha. then mdm ho created a 'bad team' all the ppl who dun listen move to tt team. so all of us sit in one row. SHIOK !! haha. me xinde n junkai in one row. we keep talking n talking n talking all day.

if we're nt talking we're slping. haha. me n xinde slp sooo much in class cos we always nvr slp at nite. always having midnight conference. haha. me mel jas xinde n other guys talk on the phone EVERYDAY AND NIGHT n den slp in class.

i was like famous for slping in class. i slp until the teachers dun care about me. i remb because xinde slp so much, mdm ho put glue on his table so he canot slp. haha. but we still find ways to nt listen to her.

she tell us nt to wear ankle socks, i purposely wear. she tell me nt to wear my skirt so short, the nxt day i purposelly wear an even shorter skirt.

we NEVER do our hmwk. i think since p5 i nvr ever do my hmwk. but i always get away with it. i also duno y. haha. my chinese teacher always have to search my bag to see if i do my hmwk. n den i just sit thr n give her the kuku face n let her search.

they call my parents like EVERYDAY cos i always nvr do my hmwk. n everytime they want my parents to sign smth, i always sign myself. they always make me stand up in class but i dont care n just sit dwn. gotta love my attitude yeah? haha

aftr sch when we have 'jia jie ke' we always sneak out to eat lunch n den run arnd n play outside. haha.

when psle was coming, we have jia jie ke like everyday. so me junkai n xinde will always purposely eat very slow. n nt so up when jia jie ke starts. the teacher always have to send the monitor dwn to pull us up to go for the lesson. when we get thr we will slowly take our time n walk in the classroom. as long as xindes thr u wun get scolded. haha

when we eat lunch, i nvr have to queue up for the food. i always ask ppl to buy for me. n they will go n buy !! haha. n nobody wants to sit wif me during lunch cos they say tt the boys always come n look for me n they're scared of xinde. LOLS

me mel n jas. always in our own world. trying to create trouble for ppl only. alot of girls in tt sch hates us. haha. n we had competition too. elieen liao. haha. till this day we still dont like her.

shes been trying to compete with us n copy us since p4 !! haha. her group against the three of us. always competing over everything. who runs faster. who is the most fashionable. who is the most chio. we compete ovr boys also. they're always trying to take guys away frm us.

they also want to compete n see who hav the most ex !! haha. of cos we win lar. haha.

n we hav all these stupid names. haha. a to z. LOL !! every week we change names.
A - aiyoko [ me ] aisha [ mel] aiyumi [ jas ]
B - buttercup barbie blossom ? i forgt alr

n den i forgt the rest alr. haha but i think we went to like j or k or smth. haha. stupid names right ? YEAH !! my names were like xiao gong zhu. xiao princess. mel is xiao barbie. haha. but it was fun lar. i had the time of my life !!

haha. until nw ppl still hate xinde . lol. see wat gerard told me. just only. on msn. haha


i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
ur bf handsome?
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
blondie?
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
lol
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
hes in sg
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o...
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who?
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xin de?
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tat fucker
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
haha
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
xinde
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
him???????????
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
no !
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
lol
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
y u say hes a fucker ?
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
i hate him
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
y ?
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
last time he think he so big but not i taller than him
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
now*
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
haha
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
last time we all think we're very big wat
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
haha
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
no
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
i tot i was small
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why, everytime i walk out the door, i see him dying a little more inside. says:
you melissa jasmine ..
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
we think we rule the sch sia
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
ya
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
we were sooo stupid
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
haha
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
lool
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now i think jasmine is okay
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
not so bad
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
we're nt ah lian anymore right ?
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
esp me !!
n den he said smth veh mean bout mel. canot post. private =)

- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
OMG ?!
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
ya lah
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
SHE DOESNT OK
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
FUCK U SIA
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
lol
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
srry
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
no offense
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
lol
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
srry
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
srry
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
srry
i don't wanna do this anymore,i don't wanna be the reason why,everytime i walk out the door,i see him dying a little more inside. says:
srry princess
n den i dowan to talk to him alr. haha

n den this other jerk go n talk to me. guys are jerks sia. bastard -

AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
hahahha
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
bcz u are i like tat type
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
lol
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
haha
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
fall in love wif my looks or me ?
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
haha now is ur look
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
but later dunno
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
mayb is u
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
fall in love wif my looks .
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
i am honest
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
hehee
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
jerk sia u
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
hahaha
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
nop bcz i realli like u look now
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
but i think u are good and funny
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
u go find other girls tt look like me la
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
cant
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
no 1 wil same look as u
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
hehehe
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
good n funny
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
wtf sia
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
if u like my looks den dun bother talking to me
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
go n talk to my looks lar
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
since u love it so much
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
i am nop like ur look and chatting with u k
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
dun angry gal gal
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
hehe
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
hmm
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
u angry ???
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
gal gal
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
pls..........
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
reply me
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
fuck u
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
wat if i tell u im ugly
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
u realli are my type
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
dream gal
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
stupid sia
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
dream girl ur kuku lar
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
yeah
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
i am
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
im nt so perfect lor
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
but imposibble wat
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
nobody is perfect
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
u are juz can appear in my dream
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
i think we are imposibble rite
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
u so busy
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
yo
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
what la ?
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
ask u go talk to my looks alr
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
ya lor
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
we are impossible
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
gal gal
AnG3l With DiRtY F@c3s...ireland work work work!! waItInG For You......^^ says:
pls..........
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
fuck u
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
i dowan to talk to u alr
- RACHAEL . . my fucked up life IT HURT WHEN I DROPPED FRM HEAVEN says:
bye

guys are jerks lar. my post is like sooo long. but nice write? haha. ill write more things bout p6 nxt time la. but i hav pics frm p6 n p5. haha neoprints. lol. i think me mel n jas spend at least $1000 on neoprints alr. haha

i still hav alot of pics but my stupid scanner keeps scanning in black n white. so ill post them nxt time. haha.

i miss zhiwei. i think bout him like every 2 seconds !! i like it when he puts his arm arnd me n den i lean on his shoulder, n den he leans back n put his head on my head. tt time we watched a movie like tt. cute right? VERY !!

i wanna see him agn ! haha. joanne, im gg copy u . I LOVE ZHIWEI SOOO MUCH !! I MISS HIM! at least my whole post is nt bout him like joanne liddat. haha.

zhiwei, i love u. i would shave off my hair to hug u one more time <33>

this post is like sooo super duper long. i'll stop here alr lar. haha. i dun think anybodys gg read this super long post anyway. haha. nites. enjoy ur holidays =)

RACHAEL - dont forget that name, its gonna be famous someday.
its the perfection that i envy,
& the image that im chasing,
thats holding me back.

what if everything i told you were all lies?

basically, im anything but ordinary.

i would totally marry any guy with a rose tattoo.
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