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Thursday, September 14, 2006
5:02 PM


IM SICK AND TIRED OF MY FUCKING LIFE !!
why cant we fucking just stay in singapore? why do i have to fucking move here?
nobody in this hse is happy at all. and im sick and tired of putting up with my mother's fucking attitude. everytime shes nt in a good mood she come n scold me. n im sooo fucking stupid to stand there and let her scold.

she say she gave up sooo much to come here n look after us. she can just stay in singapore for all i care. she thinks i nd her to look after me? if i dont have her to come and keep forcing me to eat and do stuff i will be sooo much happier

she thinks tt i never give up anything to come here ar ? she thinks shes the hero and tt everyone shd appreciate her?!

im sick of her fucking bad temper. when i was living here with my daddy and NO her i was sooo much happier.

she say she gave up her working life, her independence her money everything to come here. GO BACK LAH. I DONT NEED U

u think i never give up my PERFECT life in singapore to come here n put up with ur fucking attitude? u think i have a bad attitude. u leh? u dare to tell me ur nt unreasonable ?

everytime i try to talk to her all she knws hw to talk about is hw messy my room is n my clothes n blah blah.

IF U DUN LIKE ME THEN SAY LAH! U DUNO HW TO JUST SEND ME BACK TO SINGAPORE HUH? THEN U CAN LIVE UR FUCKING PERFECT LIFE WITHOUT ME.

everything tt goes wrong in her life is always my fucking fault. when my brother comes n irritates me n i scold him its always my fault. when my sister comes n takes my things n i shout at her its always my fucking fault.

my life is sooo damn fucked up nw. i always have no energy in sch. im like failing every class. i cant even find zhiwei. cant even talk to him. i canot talk to my sister anymore.

I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE! I HATE MYSELF.

so u knw wat? im just gg mess my room up even more. im gg become super skinny. im gg nt eat. im gg do everything tt she tells me nt to do and im gg do whatever i want whenever i want.

she can fucking hate me more since she already hates me. i'll do whatever i can to go back to singapore.

I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE IN AMERICA! I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE! SHE DOESNT EVEN KNW HW MANY NIGHTS I CRY MYSELF TO SLP BECAUSE OF HER FUCKING ATTITUDE AND COS I MISS ZHIWEI N MY SISTERS. ALL SHE KNWS HW TO DO IS SAY IM USELESS AND PUT ME DWN. TT MAKES U HAPPY RIGHT? TO SEE UR FUCKING DAUGHTER SOOO FUCKED UP!!

when i say tt im gg train for cross countryu. she says im overdoing it. now i swear if i say i want something, im gg do whatever i can to get it

i wont even care about what u say now. when u ask me to eat i wont fucking eat. cos even if i eat to make u happy, the nxt thing u'll do is say im useless. im sick of fucking listening to u and making u happy and get nth in return except for u saying im useless.

u can say all u want BECAUSE I DONT FUCKING CARE!

zhiwei. im fucking fed up of thinking bout wat happened to u and whr u are n why u dont wanna contact me and everything. u alr promised me tt u will tell me if u dont like me anymore.

so dont make empty promises. just tell me cos its just not worth it to wait and getting this fucked up.

I RLY DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE! I JUST WANNA LIVE MY OWN LIFE WITHOUT ANYBODY FORCING ME TO DO ANYTHING !


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