Friday, November 10, 2006
9:10 PM
HELLO KIDDIES -
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today was kind of a good day, i guess.
plenty of surprises !
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but i think i'll start out with the bad stuff first.
ok. so this morning my mom came into my
room, and there was like 2 pieces of clothing
on the floor.
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and then she started freaking out and yelling
and screaming at me.
then she went into my bathroom and saw
my towel on the floor.
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then she screamed at me even more.
so i had to wake up and go and
get ready for sch.
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then when i went dwnstairs, brittany called.
idk what she said but my mom talked
to her.
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then my mom told me that she had this dream
last night.
she said she dreamt that she got into
a car accident and she was gonna die.
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then she said that when she was in the hospital,
she asked the nurse to call me.
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then when she talked to me, all she said to me was:
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" i think its time for u to change, because i won't be
here to see u change anymore"
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change as in not throw my stuff everywhr and
be more considerate and everything.
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and then in her dream, after she told me that,
she asked me to pass the phone to my brother.
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then she said that she said to my brother:
" im gonna miss u very very much."
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and then she died ( in her dream)
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then she told me (in real life)
"ur so irritating that im not even gonna miss u
when i die."
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"even in my dream, it is so clear
that i won't miss you, and that is true."
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i started crying .. ALOT
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i was like. omg. my mom just told me that
she won't miss me when she dies.
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and then she was like
"u better go and memorize ur father's phone number
in case something happens to me."
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"then u can call ur father and tell him when
i die. there won't even be anybody to claim
my body when i die"
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and then she said.
" by the time u change, i would have already died"
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i was crying soo much. all the way to sch i was
crying sooo fucking much in the car.
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i was soo scared she was gonna commit suicide
or purposely get herself into
a car accident or something because
she kept saying "when i die"
not " if i die"
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and i was like soo fucking sad that she told
me that shes not gonna miss me when
she dies.
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and then in sch,
the whole freaking day i cannot
concentrate because i keep
asking myself if im really sooo irritating
that even my own mother won't miss me when
she dies.
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but then when i got to sch, molly and gill
were waiting for me. and gill was holding
a floatable balloon - tims present
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and then they were like,
" we have a surprise for u!"
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im like "what?"
i rly was'nt in the mood for any surprises.
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then they brought me to my locker.
they decorated my locker!
i was like. " thanks :)"
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they picked the right day to do it.
and then the rest of the day, i had to carry
that balloon around sch cos it won't fit into
my locker.
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but then in 6th period,
like 10 ppl tried to pop the balloon.
but it won't pop.
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so me and turner were just sitting there
throwing pencils and it.
and then he popped it!
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and then he was like
turner: damn! why did i have to pop it? why didnt u pop it?
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me: cos its my birthday present
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turner: now i feel bad.
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me: u shd. tim's gonna be so sad when i tell him u popped my balloon.
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turner: fine. i'll buy u a new balloon.
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me: ok! i want a pink one with faries on it.
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turner: why pink? then i'll have to carry a pink balloon
around all day to give it to u
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me: ok. then get me an elmo balloon that sings.
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turner: NO, thats even worse.
turner: i'll get u a pink one.
. me: OK!
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idk if he will get it for me.
but, we'll see.
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im gonna do:
500 pushups,
500 no-rest crunches,
500 ab contracts
500 double crunches,
500 leg lifts,
& 500 squats
by tonight :)
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so far, i've already done
100 crunches,
100 ab contracts,
100 double crunches,
40 pushups,
100 leg lifts,
& 180 squats
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OMG. i just did 180 squats non-stop.
i don't think i can make myself do anymore squats!
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squats and lunges CAN KILL YOU!
i wonder if anybody ever died from doing
lots & lots of squats and lunges and crunches -
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anw, anybody up for a challenge?
join me :)
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its rly not as hard as it sounds,
and i NEED to get back into kickbutt shape
for soccer and track.
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and i havnt gone to the gym in a week.
so this is my punishment :)
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idk if i shd go skating tmr.
should i?
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after doing 500 squats and leg lifts,
my legs probably won't be able to move tmr.
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so maybe i won't
but idk.
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theres something wrong with my scanner. it will only scan in yellow! so i just took a pic of the thing they made for me. idk if u can see it, but i thought it was REALLY sweet. they put it on my locker -
anw, im gonna go watch the shows that i DVRed.
greys anatomy, desperate housewives, survivor, america's next top model, top chef.
oh yeah. if any of u are wondering who won project runway season 3, jeffery won :)
