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Friday, November 03, 2006
4:06 PM


i dont feel good. i dont feel good at all
maybe cos the weather is so cold. i dont feel like doing anything. i just want to curl up under the comforter and sleep.

i just watched art school confidential. its supposed to be some 'great' movie. but it sucks - seriously. the box said that its a comedy, but its scary! its about this guy, who goes to art sch and there this strathmore strangler. and thats about all i understood. or maybe in too dumb to understand it, cos everybody said that its such a good movie.

there brittany, cassidy, dareint,javar and some other ppl are gonna go to this mountain place over the weekend. i dont think im gonna go cos i dont feel up to it at all.

and i wanna go to the gym tmr cos i didnt go today. i wanna go to icehouse too!

i read bryan's blog, and he was talking about the 2 different kinds of blogs. reflection, and current affairs. i think my blog is a little bit of botout with. i start out with reflections, and then i get carried away and start talking about a whole new topic.

actually, i think cheryl aw yong is a good blogger. i always view her blog. see - im not a bitch. i said smth good about her even though she hates me. LOL

ok anyways. theres this girl in my economics class. shes so perfect! or at least she tries to be perfect. not like perfect perfect. but like good girl perfect, perfect grades, she speaks perfect english, she freaks out when u say the word ass, she wears abso non revealing clothes, sits with her legs perfectly crossed. shes always smiling, shes never angry, always happy, has a smile on her face all the time. her knowledge is probably 50 times more than mine, kind of like bree from desperate housewives

shes the perfect daughter every mother dreams of having.

but does she really want to be this perfect? is she like naturally perfect or is she trying her very best to be perfect? theres this thing about her that makes people want to hate her. but shes always so nice.

like today, we had to have that 'meeting' in econs, she stood up to talk about her business, and all of us were like 'whats her name?

shes soo quiet that u dont even notice that shes there.

i would never want to be like this. i will do things to make myself happy, not to be perfect for my mother. i dont want to be so perfect that people hate me.

i dont want to be so good and quiet in class that people dont even notice that im there.

im an attention seeker. i like attention. i like to annoy people, like to talk, like to do stupid things.

my mom says that im desperate for attention, cos im always late for everything. i dont think im desperate for attention. like i dont purposely do stuff to call attention to myself and make everybody look at me.

i mean, once in a while everybody does that, but i dont always try to be late on purpose. im just always late. no matter how hard i try to rush and how early i leave.

maybe its just in my nature. im not one of those people that always arrive early. i dont even see the point of arriving early, because u just end up waiting for people. and im not a very patient person, so i would rather have people wait for me than to wait for people

but thats not fair too. always having people wait for me and not waiting for other people.
maybe i should start arriving like just on time x)

like today, i overslept so i didnt go for breakfast. and then i woke up at 8.10, even though sch starts at 9.20.

i left the house at 9.10, but i was still late for class.

but i just like walked into class and quickly sat dwn, and my teacher didnt even see me sneak in x)

ok. enough about that perfect stuff alr.
today is my moms birthday. nobody did anything special for her, so im gonna take some cheesecake and put candles on it and surprise her when she gets home x)

my dad left for sweden today. i wont see him again until christmas, which is like 2 mths time.

my sister went back to college, so life is back to normal now.

oh yes! real world is on! im gonna go watch it. i'll change my blogskin ltr on. and maybe post again x)

ok bye

SUMMER SUNSHINE?
RACHAEL - dont forget that name, its gonna be famous someday.
its the perfection that i envy,
& the image that im chasing,
thats holding me back.

what if everything i told you were all lies?

basically, im anything but ordinary.

i would totally marry any guy with a rose tattoo.
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