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Tuesday, July 10, 2007
1:13 PM


jake drives me crazy.
sometimes he does. but sometimes, he melts me.
i wanna breakup, but i don't wanna breakup. i don't know if i should just end this once and for all and save myself the insanity, or give it a shot and see if things will change when i get back home.

i have no freaking idea what to do.
i mean, i know im selfish over the christain thing. and he totally has a right to get mad at me. but, then again, hes acting kind of gay. and we're trying to sort things out as im typing this post. but then again, i've been hanging out with another cute guy. in another country. at the beach. and skatepark. i mean, if i were him, i would be pissed too.

soo, right now, i don't know if i should be the nice & understanding i'll-put-up-with-the-shit- girlfriend, or the selfish and mean you-just-pissed-me-off-you-blew-it girlfriend.

alright. thoughts aside.

i hung out with christain today. (selfish. i know.) we went to the skatepark, and he tried to teach me how to skate. it didnt go too well though. i was falling left and right. and backwards. almost. i almost hit my superly awesome sexy butt. but i regained my balance. i guess all that figure skating payed off (:

after that, we walked to maxi ICA (swedish grocery store. its like walmart.) to get me some bandaids, because i was DUMBBBB enough, to wear my superly cute new flats and walk ALL the way to the skatepark. by the time i got there, the back of my foot was all torn up and bleeding.

talking about my cute flats, i wore the cutest outfit today. but it was a tad slutty though. but not over-the-top slutty. just a smidge. a red V cut t-shirt dress, with black leggings, and my superly cute flats, and a skater cap that says 'rock' on it. (:

yeah so we went to get my bandaids and then sat and ate lollipops and talked. mainly about sports. haha. guys' favorite topic to talk about, is sports. im glad i know quite a bit about sports though.[ soo, if you're planning to pick up guys, do some research on sports (:]

after that, we basically walked around a whole bunch, he showed me his apartment, showed me his favorite cafe, went into stores with me and we played the if-you-could-get-anything-you-want-for-free-what-would-you-pick game.
i guess hes pretty entertaining (:

later at night, we went bowling. cosmic bowling (: like as a family. MY family.
it was mucho gusto awesome, cause there were disco balls and like smoke coming out from the sides and stuff. and they had oldies on and the lights were dimmed.
pretty awesome (: perfect for a date.

i love fun dates (: something other than the movies or dinner or stuff like that. like maybe .. theme parks ? or paintballing. lazer tag. miniature golfing (: or even real golf is fun too. bowlings awesome (: and even like staying home to play mario kart or playing on the wii. haha. fun stuff.

alright, i guess im ending here.
goodnight lovers



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